lost
02.18.06 (10:41 pm) [edit]that's it i guess i feel so lost...totally unproductive in my workplace...i am thinking of resigning n go off for a good long vacation...but the prob is i cant go alone....i have some probz in going away by myself...first parents wont let me go wandering alone no matter how much i convince them :(...second...money...third...my own insecurities...i feel lost...or empty...i dunno wat is disturbing me...:(...mayb i am just sick n tired wif my life...bored to death... i am NOT working at all...not like i used to i guess...i hate this company!...before i hate myself too much for working in this place for this many years...wasting my life...n energy....i need to leave....n leave as fast as possible...i need peace of mind!...guess it's just one of my dark moments....thingie...i better start to work...then mayb i'll get the rhythm....but i need to start planning a getaway...asap :)