big fat mess...
10.18.05 (4:15 pm) [edit]as always i end up in trouble...been like a zombie without any direction for some time...i guess ever since i graduated...i just dont know wat to do...n it's been nearly more then 2 years down the road...n am like still pretty lost or i am afraid to face the reality...i dont know...this i dont know line...seems like a tag line for me this days.....:(....duh!...
recently i took many unpaid leaves....well it seemed like i had no more leaves entitled....n now they're telling me that i do have....n i need to have MC's...or watever effing supporting documents ....well if i had known earlier i might have proceeded...to obtain MC's....but i thgt it'll be unpaid anyways so i didn't take any...lolz...stupid of me...now what am i gonna do...i could have saved some days from being unpaid...hehe....but guess i just blew it out of the window....my life is out of proportions these days....sigh :(
well sent out sms blasts to friends....requesting for the add's n all...n they smsed me to ask ..wther i'm getting married....bleh!...i just wanted to send out some greeting cards if i have the mood to do so...n i ended up knowing some of them...at least around 5 of them are getting married by the end of this year....lolzzz.....talk about a surprise..a sweet one i guess :)
wonderful...
10.09.05 (4:08 pm) [edit]
i got this wonderful e mail from my frem..kanth...this pix's are all from gurlzgroup...a yahoo group...interesting...their own trademark...i guess...am not so sure
naah...
10.09.05 (2:34 pm) [edit]naah..well meeting wif saran didnt take place...but spent laz sat wif sharmi....was go around klcc.....around n around....n around...she's gonna go for hong kong this coming week....so she was like shopping for mini stuffs...well basic neccessaties...hmm..n then we shared our live stories..
she's kinda going out wif a guy...apparently...nothing is happening it seems....the guy is kinda boring....well...asked her to give the dude sumtime..who knows aye..
hmm..supposed to watch "ghajini" wif her yesterday..well it didnt happen....:(....mainly because i have transportation problem...as it was sunday the evening shows were booked...n we were left wif night shows.....well i couldnt go in between as i had to go to the temple as well.....temple was interesting they had sum functions n of coz....da kali temple nearby had urumi drum's n all...didnt go to the temple though..just listened to the group playing the devotional tunes....the rhythm..totally unexplainable....one of my fav's :)
thinking of...
10.07.05 (12:05 am) [edit]well thinking off meeting sum one this weekend....a long time fren...an online fren ...whon i had not met before....whom has asked me out for coffee for god knows how many times well for the past 5 years...well i guess this past one year..was rather...frequent?....hmm...if he's free...guess i'll meet him this weekend...if i dont change my mind that is and if he can make it back to KL that is...well he's a pretty bc man..studying...
well was in the hospital...well..been visiting hospital's like nobody's biz...have had appt's n still have appt's n it takes time n i dont have the patience...well wat do u expect from general hospitals....be if outpatient or specialist...same old two weeks theory unless i am definetily in a if-u-dun-treat-me-i-will- be-dead-mode...is diff story altogether...well i can unnerstan..i guess the volume of patients....are just too high....
well if i have the money the private shldnt be much of a prob?...duh!...am sick n tired of walking to the hospitals anyways....each time they send me back...i'll be thinking ...dont u guys ever put a big bombshell on my head one fine day!...i'll make sure i'll rip the hospital apart!...:p...diff docs...diff documentations...diff treatments...diff medicines....diff this..diff that...well i might just shut it n stay at home....but the nurses are kinda nice...thgh i think i had a snob of a doc today...boring!...i didnt feel like talking...n i was just a snobbish as him...till he finally cooled it a bit.....well when he saw my bp was slightly high...mayb he realised i wasnt joking? wat da ...well of course as i have been sleepless for sum time or irregularly sleeping....n having muscle n vein n joint pains...of coz..my bp will be irregular...but i dont give a damn....am just sick n tired of this shit!
sick n tired!
10.05.05 (12:34 am) [edit]well i am just sick n tired of writing coz the archives is kinda missing....hmm...i dunno wat the hell happened to my 2005 blogs...annoying...no mood to write ...coz everything is just going missing :(...............................
mayb am not in a good mood now.... @shakes head@