hmm...
09.30.05 (12:55 am) [edit]i havent sat n read the whole blog yet...but from the look of it...i've made this a sick blog...coz all i have is i am sick..i am sick n i am sick...from god knows which entry...n the pathethic part is....the 2005 archives is missing....gosh....hmm..i havent actually read back my blog.....i have to sit n read to know wat actually i have done or in wat state of mind i have been in the past few months...gosh!
well...
09.29.05 (3:44 pm) [edit]i guess i sorta found out for the time being wat my prob is.....well...hmm...i feel good today....mayb because i guess i sorta know what the whole thing is about...i dont want to go under drugs.....not yet.....guess am gonna try to control it wif out any drugs....i have faith n confidence in myself...that i will succeed....n succeed i will :)
it's a beautiful day :)
upset....
09.27.05 (10:06 pm) [edit]been feeling upset lately....i dunno if its my mind or sumthing is wrong wif my body...everytime i go for a check up...they say i'm fine n that just stresses me up...been not sleeping properly for the past one month....
been feelin very uncomfortable...i cant explain....finally they said it might be due to my fears or anxiety....hmm...it all started after i visited my unc in CCU...makes me wonder the shock brought me all this or the shock aggravated sumthing else....or i've been sick n i didnt realise it....been constantly worrying...but i managed to put it away so far....
everything scares me...n there's this nagging headache for the past two weeks or am i imagining it....hmm...i dont know wats gonna happen....to me...n this uncomfortable eyes...seems like its blurring or watever it is...i feel weak...muscles n veins aching all over...wif joint pains....
makes me wonder wat they're gonna say ...u have so n so n u have so many days more to live kind of theory....lolzz...thats pathethic...or mayb i'll die in peace knowing wats actually wrong then sitting down worrying bout it....but i managed to control my worries i guess....now n then it pops up...but i guess i am in ctrl better then last time...
life...
09.24.05 (12:32 am) [edit]wat can i say...am in such a mess...am feeling sick...or i think i am sick...or i am just stressed up.....been sum time since i updated this blog....sumtimes nowadays i wonder