Mystic

kinda bored....

kinda bored....hmm...but was supposed to watch anniyan wif kaya tiz fri...later on she said yoges is coming...n another guy... ...it seems it's yoges's fren......n she wants to meet him....hmm..i was wondering wat i was gonna do....i mean if kaya...was gonna meet the other guy.....well yoges can be a bigheaded bragging bully....sumtimes...i was thinking...hmm...well...i don't want to sound mean...i do talk to him...but it just seems i dont click well wif him....well...maloo an be a jerk sumtimes...hehehe..well i just ont wnat to end up as being out of place...and sit there like a total idiot...

o...am wathing kuch kuch hota hai....well...was studying when the movie was released...it was such a big hit...:)...well....it's one of those fairy tale love story kinda movies...nice...

actually...

actually...da other day when i went over to the clinic...da doc actually became my grooming agent n hairdresser....i was like...hmm.......yea yea...my mum has told me almost all in da family told me i shld dress up properly....comb my hair nicely...well...gals my age are really trendy...but wat do i do...go around wif an oily head.....smoothly combed down hair n clipped like a nanny...i dont wear make up's....baggy pants n shirts are my style...a real nanny...well the doc thought my mum didnt teach me grooming skills...well the fact is everybody tried....i didnt change...well stubborn me...i'll change when i feel like changing....when there is a need to change....i'll change...

hmm..my colleagues are threathening me...that they'll put aneasthethics n bring me to a saloon for a make over...lolzz....yea i do admit i lack in self confidence mayb lotsa inferiority  complex...i know a change might boost myself....but...i just dont feel like it....i will change when i want to ....:)...stubborn me!

now i wonder why all the sudden attention and care for maloo...hmmm...well never liked attention...hehehe..but sumtimes...geeks like me...attract attention for the wrong reasons...prolly coz i'm a  geek...hehehe

boring life......

boring life......my god...wat a boring life i have.....no zest at all...lolzz...eat sleep..work.....wat a wreck...am a useless piece os specimen to everyone around me....now....maloo .....................maloo.....................................................sigh...such a useless jerk...when will maloo change...shld i change into a shedevil...or a sheangel.....or just be da same good for nothing maloo...bleh!

when will i change....will i?...sumtimes sum lines come by to my head...feel like writing sumtin...n ye i wont write....i alwiz have a feeliing i know wat i'm supposed to do..but aint doing it...am i taking things for granted or am just into self denial...sheesh...me n my stupid polambels!!!!!!!!! never ending story...mayb i shld stop polamberaning n take the plunge.....i'm afraid of the plunge....that's it...afraid of the plunge..........

and now....

and now....went over to gh today....coz muscles pain was bad...especially abdominal n leg ached badly...n the sole of my feet...it had a burning sensation....well....got my urine tested...it was ok....then since i had be having this problem for the past two weeks....me n my big mouth...i needed a jab it seems....well i was sick n tired of it anyways....sleepless nites....n bad muscle aches all over.....got my jab...the lady did a fine job...n i just cluched to the pillow....n just set in my mind...it'll be over....n it did...

well i rushed out of the room...thinking everytin is ok....but after a while as usual...was dizzy...n sweated profusely for sum time i guess...well had sum sweets wif me...just in case....was okies...mum was wif me....took my medicines n came back...was sleeping n eating a lot today....thats what i do a lot nowadays...eat...n gain weight...lolz...hopeless.....:)

after that the jab...well....it ached a while...still does but not bad....by tmrw guess it'll go off....well next week back to morning shift...yay..n yucks....it seems like...the dept i am working for will be outsourced n we'll be moved over to another dept...well...i'll have to wait n see...that means change of schedules again....n of coz...most probably...back to the position i was earlier....before demotion..for one month....well...i'll wait n see...

dont..feel so good..

gosh...

gosh...didnt sleep...the whole nite yesterday....was walking around like a zombie...felt as if my kidneys have gone kaput...and my whole body was aching all over...am on mc today....feel a bit better i guess...doc said i am fine.....hmm...but body still aching....am gonna take the medicines and sleep early today...tmrw back to nite shift..i hope i will be ok soon....a week being ill...kinda tired....

nite shift again....

nite shift again....yucks....well not feeling too well....feel damn tired...back ache....joints all paining....i feel damn tired.feel as though my kidneys are gonna give up one me.....n that too after two days on regular leave...o god...i dunno...how these 4 days are gonna go by....hmm...a fren of mine resigned today...well jumping ganu got a new job...well there goes another fren a good fren......ppl come n go....made n lost many colleagues....not to say lost...still keep in touch wif em....but i wanna go back home for a while...the cough aint stopping...tiring me off....coughing all da time

i wanna go back...coz i cant stand the back pain....i wanna have my meal as well...hungry...

da day...

interesting week...but...

interesting week......well.......on saturday went wif thil to maju junction....well thil received an email and i received an sms...to go to jobstreet idol...well we reached there rather later....n we were rather confused at what to do...we just stayed and followed the show...well we got to know who were the winners of the jobstreet idol search...n it was an evening filled wif fun...wif the presence of trakxx fm d.j's...well...after that i went to klcc.....was rounding klcc all by myself....hmm...had a bad headache....n i was hoping not to faint....as the headache was rather..the pain was rather excruciating..well reached home...safely...thank god..

and on sunday....which was the best i guess....i went over to mid valley....well i met up wif my ex-schoolmates thil,rajes,sharmi n a new fren called gaya...well it was loads of fun...as i didnt expect the indian global exhibiton to be well sort of fun....there were lotsa dances n exhibiton booths...accessories..clothes...etc etc....n i saw of coz...my fav's there were bharathanatyams and much more....after walking around we went over to makan makan in mid valley n then we went straight to the cosmic bowling centre....lolzz...played bowling and then went back to the exhibiton hall...lolzz...got to see three version's of raa raa...i mean glimpses...well it was crowded...n i was rather short...hehe...it was nice....and then after that...they brought me over to pj and we makan makan there...never in my life i reached home that late....hehe....it was loadz of fun.....n the next day i went over to work.....n after that i fell sick...wif high fever....bad cough....etc etc...till now....hahaha...wat a week...n i dont even know if i'll go to work tmrw...sigh :)

a bad day....

a bad day....destructive sasauness...i guess thats what i am having...now...hmm...irritated n temper flaring everywhere...at anything.....been a rude specimen da whole day....dunnohow long this is gonna go on....but as long as i keep my mouth shut...it'll b ok...but that's an impossible thing to do coz my job involves lotsa talking...lolzz...

i am goin cuckoo..counting my days of sanity!

a thought.........

a thought.........this lines just came to my head the other day...i was rather upset ....was not in a good mood...lolzz...saved it to my h/p....

a load of thrash....well a collection of thrash...let it b..

Wateva i touch..turns into stone...

Wateva i do...ends up awry....

Wateve is say..is worst then a thrust of blade...

My mere existance...seems like a bad omen....

My presence..seems to effect everyone around me....

I know no one is to blame...but then again why me?

Sumtimes...i feel truly sad of my mere existance...

Bearing an image of a destroyer....in the midst of all those present......

My heart aches n my eyes twitch....n there seems to be sumtin wetting my cheeks...

A trickle of tears...*sigh*

But why o why it doesnt seem to matter to me?

Sumtimes i sit n wonder...will i...will i...

Will i ever see sum light at the end of the tunnel...will i ever?

end of thrash.com :)

sumtimes...

sumtimes...sumtimes...we've got to lose sumtin or sumone....coz we think we're not good enof ...but then...sumtimes we might not realise we're losing sum one n only realise when it's too late..sumtimes we dont realise that sumtimes...ppl think ur good enof for them...but sumtimes we might think this person or watever it is might not be...

n life goes on wif sumtimes...so n so...wat if's n regret's....the wat if...i had done that n said that...wat if...judgements...sumtimes we do this things so that other's might be happy..sumtimes...we do stuff's that might just hurt another..it's all in the game at the end of the day...*sigh*....well..i shldn't regret...shld i ...i shld learn from my mistakes n the mistakes of others....well...i dont know how long i'll live...but each day...if i look at things nicely...i do learn...n there's much more for malathi to learn....n i'm crapping in here ain't i....as alwiz...malathi's full or craps..filled wif thrash.com....

there are sum instances...sum ppl...etc etc...thats reminds me of sumtin....lolzz...sweet bitter memories.....i guess sum faded away...whilst i grew up..sum remains strongly..as though it's a fresh memory...:)... n not only that....i could have done better...in this...mayb if only i had done that...said that....did this....n that...if only...n this is not enough for me...wat ever i have n have done...is just not enough....wat is enough then....hmm...notin is enough....till da day they put me to rest.....as there'll alwiz be things to seek..to do...to achieve...

i shld never indulge in regrts...a it might hamper my progress n yet i still do it....lolzz...i just dont unnerstan myself....:)..sumtimes..sumtimes...

hmm..to throw this feelings away n to become a sage...hmm...that's a lot of sacrifice n self control...which i don't think so i have :)

sheesh...

sheesh...planned to go out wif frenz...notin materialized.....aii...well it's been a tiring week at work...well it's aggravated wif my monthly crisis....dead tired....waiting for it to end....other then that....life's been kinda pathethic....but other then that....nothing much....

o yea the other day went over to play...bowling ....brought dad....n i played all three games by myself....well..i had to release the stress sum where...:)...it just took me 40 minutes i guess...i was thinking i was going to get a mini heart attack....due to the over excitement....well...am still pretty much a beginner...n played just for fun...:)..am looking forward to go to the bowling alley's again ;)