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flashback....

flashback....it's already 1 jan 2005....not much of a celebration here as it was called off....well...was thinking about lots of things....sort of a flashback....well getting older :)...tats one....well..i dont know what to expect  ....this year......i'll take one thing at a time...

been thinking bout many things....well...it just seems like any other day to me...and it just doesnt seems to make any difference to me for the time being...thinking bout a lot of issues just leaves me feeling upset....now i shall set aside this matter to myself....more to catch up laterzz...no mood to write today...

no mood......

no mood......aii....feel like vomitting....mayb i had too much...of food just now...for breakfast...guess didnt  feel like eating today..or did i stuff myself wif food?..back to restless mode.......feel very very restless today....

caught up wif the news today morning.....well...so far my lifestyle is just the same..i guess....though i guess some what...when i see all this..i can't believe it...it seems like a disaster movie....repeated over n over again....but the prob is....it's reality not a big budget movie.....never in my life had i seen such a disaster happening so fast leaving a destruction of this scale....every time i see it....it just reminds me of the after shocks...n i really dunno if i should be grateful that...everything is ok here...or feel devastated for what is happening around the world....a sick feeling in my stomach....maybe i am not so stable today...well...cause i'm back to work!!!!!...aiii...seriously...i think i'm going nuts...

freaking shit...just argued wif a cust....tensed up tensed up.....aii..neramey seri illey....all the bad words coming to my mouth....aii....tsk tsk....this is a very very bad day.....hmm....all annoying pest's today...anyways...feel like vomitting...had two hacks...nothing doing...but its a bit better now....my stupid knee cap is hurting....very blur today...annoyed n pissed off....ergghh....feel...... like smashing sumtin to bits n pieces....i actually called a lady mr. all the way n that lady didnt tell me either...well she had a chinese name n a manly voice wat am i supposed to do....well a good thing she wasnt pissed off...i was feeling bleh!...when she finally said i am miss so n so...i was like ..oh ok..ms.....

n then there were some annoying specimen's..but then again.....there was this cust...he was talking about his acct...n he was surprised he had received a bill....rather annoyed he got a bill for a closed acct....well..whilst we were talking he told his ship sank yesterday....i was like a total idiot....said..."oic sir...is tat so sir"....then i was like...ur ship sank?  then i was like wat ship sir....he was like u know da wave came over....yesterday...it sanked my ship....i was oh!..*me being such an insensitive pest*...well checked wif cust if everything is alrite now or not..well it was totally out of scope...but from his voice it was already clear ..that he seems rather...wat to say..sounded hopeless....well at least i can listen to him for a while...n who knows..cheer him up by saying now he doesnt have to worry everything is settled...well it was settled thats why i said that..illey na pochilah.....ermm well...wat else can i say...tsunami n the quake is everywhere...u pick up the phone its there...newspaper...radio...tv.....aii...i....still feel very tensed n restless......this is not good at all...my luxury time....eating for the sake of eating....duh!...hope will feel alrite soon......calls are coming in like nobody's *&^%$#@!~* biz!....

yesterday put a few gallons of of good oil (nalla yennai)...on my head...well it seems can reduce bodyheat.....but wat the heck nothing doing...now i feel like an overheated oven......an immeasurable amount of restlessness...i'm afraid ...i might just lose it......*grumbles*......*stay calm malathi....stay calm....*...a few more hours to go before i can go back home......tahan...do not get irritated....patience is virtue...mayb i ought to go to the washroom...n smile at myself eh....or just go for a walk....or just resign the job n go back home....i wanted to add sumtin in here...i kinda forgot wat it was...why am i being so absent minded?..why is everyone being a pain...in the u know wat....sheesh...mayb i should drink a few gallons of water...or scribble my mind out in a piece of paper ........ n tear it to pieces...n chuck it outside da building... the environment?..well i dont give a shit!....papers are biodegradable...

hmm..am back home now...adding sum stuff again.......ne ways....was a total blurr case today....was a menace...neways....embarassed myself too.....talking bout embarassing moments....lolzz....i'm so used to it....hehe..thats why i'm thick skinned i guess.....was talking to my colleague in da lift...was too engrossed wif wat i was talking...i came out of the lift when it stopped....only to realise me myself coming out...aii..got down on the wrong floor...*smacked my head*....got back into da lift.....n continued talking...just made dunno...duh!.well there were lotsa others too.........u know u'll have this feeling as if sumone is watching u....i have this very bad habit of not focusing wat is around...if i dont feel like looking around...suddenly i decided to look at that way..... only to find my fren...standing there..in da lift.....lolzzz....as alwiz she was complaining..."i was standing rite next to u n u didnt notice me"...blah blah blah...well i didnt intend to....well my h/p beeped juz now...sum one's bday...:)

n e ways...came back home ...sent over sum new year messages....lots more to send tmrw....dozed off....for a while...n woke up wif a headache....well now am okies...kinda sleepy i guess....dont feel like celebrating new year this year...but mayb if i change my mind i might just check out the city....but then again....really no mood...for the time being...n guess from the news...the government aint gonna do any celebration this year....so mayb the celebrations might be carried out by individuals or the private sector...well...we'll know on new year's eve anyway... 

i'm still checking out da news....now n then...laterzzz......n coffee is out of the window for the time being.....

just.....

just.....thought i'll post sumtin first...came online for a while.....got sumtin to do.....so cannot write much in here...ne ways....kinda hard to access tblog nowadays.....hmm....mayb there's some upgrading or sum sort of technical issues..or mayb each time i'm trying to access...it just aint working...hehe.....well....i'll catch up laterzzz....adios for now

alrite am back...okies mayb due to the nap i had in the evening ....and a nescafe after that kept me awake...after using the net....i stayed awake....till 4 am..watched cnn...bbc...or anything that was available....witout feeling sleepy at all....now....thats one of the reasons i dont take much nescafe or coffee nowadays...i just makes me go hyperactive n zombie like.....n after the effects wear out i'll be tired...duh!....i forced myself to sleep...woke up at 6 am...hmmm...couldnt sleep well...mayb after watching all those storiesn footage's...it kept on running in my mind....i dunno if i was deraming or sleeping.....after that two hours i sleep woke up again n watched the news...since my parents wake up kinda early everyday.....

n then....slept back at 8 am....n i didnt want to wake up till 12pm....its like i dont know...the same thing happened..........n i seriously dont know if i slept or not....duh!...yesterday nite....saw some footage's....n the one in malaysia....my god....the sea ...it was as if it was so calm...n the first wave came......n the sea level seemed to rise sooo fast n the second wave hit the shore wit so much of force....it rose up...so high...n wiped out...practically... savaging anything that was on its path.....within a blink of the eye....hmm...was in langkawi last year....there were not much wave's there...when i went over there..it was ok... ..well for sum one who cant swim to save her life....wat else save others......i'm left speechless....ne ways i wonder will it help if i know how to swim ne ways....knowing the waves can travel from 160km to 1000km per hour....the impact.....

well yesterday....the sea ...for me...it looked more like a hungry predator...hunting for its victim....who were totaly unaware of its presence...n when it attacked it left...many dead n many more...trembling in after shocks...n many more unsure of their future.....in a way affecting the whole world....

...whilst i watched over the footage's...there were doctor's desperately trying to save ppl's live....volunteers...rushing thru n fro...in all the affected nations...n it must be total chaos...in hospitals...not only do they have to handle the patients but the....anxiously waiting relatives as well....outburst of anger...sadness...uncontrollable flow of emotions.....survivors waiting to be saved....the grim task of identifying the dead....which lay in between hundreds of bodies..many missing........telecommunications severed...lack of basic amenities....iraq had the similar situation when it was attacked...when the twin towers collapsed..it was chaos....n many more cases around the world...utter devastation....being in the cust service line...i can some what imagine...wat the ppl .....handling the helplines might go through...well it might be much more worst then i can imagine....well i hope there wont be another quake or tsunami....but it's a good feeling to know everyone is helping each other hand in hand....no matter where they're from...n this time i guess everyone is well prepared...if there is another attack....

gees...my mind...seems to be restless...must reduce....my caffeine intake...been very talkative n hyper..these few days....aii...not good...not good....at all...n hopefully i wont have terrible outburst's of temper....erghh...not when i am supposed to go back to work tmrw....it will be certainly not advisable....now...an advice to myself be patient at all time malathi..laterzz...

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?....hmm...yesterday morning whilst at work......a sudden bout of giddiness...well i was adding sumtin in my bloggie.....shaked my head a few times....i thought i was going to fall ill.....but suddenly acolleague said...she's feeling kinda dizziy...neveryone were like yeah....well ....those who were standing said that the building was shaking....i was like wat the....the whole day yesterday i've been forgetting  things....as if...n had a feeling something was just not right .....and now wat....the building shaking...no one had the idea of lying under a few tonnes of concrete....so we rushed out n waited till everything was ok n went back to work....

later on i came to know there was a quake in indonesia....well...continued work...a sunny morning...became a giddy morning...hmm...the after affects was still there for sum time rather nauseatic feeling......and then.....later on...we came to know there were a few parts affected from the quake...from tremors...around the city....especially high rise buildings....well....came to know form my singapore fren...they had tremors too..aii....

hmm...was in the dark bout the whole things...till i came back home n watched CNN....it was massive...earthquake n tsunami's....n seriously...i really didnt know wat to think bout the whole thing....sms'ed sum frenz..sum said they felt nothing ..n there were some casualties in penang...i was like penang?..wats penang got to do with the quakes...mayb sum other incidents...it didnt strike my head then...as time passed by...came to know..malaysia was hit too...along the northern coastal areas...waited patiently for the 8 o'clock news...got a clearer picture of how much malaysia was affected... then...earthquake in indonesia n tsunami in sorrounding countries...

it's massive...disastrous...a quiet sunday morning became....unexplainably disastrous.....total devastation n mass destruction everywhere....since it's my off day today...so.....while i sit at home..catch up wif  CNN...or watever news tats available....mayb  because i experienced....well it might just be 1% of the actual quake..i dont know wat it was...tremor....shockwave...or watever it was.......it was kinda scary.....but i guess its nothing compared to what a lot of ppl are going through today....n i guess...i have no idea what is going on....its not the same..... sitting in front of the tv....for another breaking news.... or... going through the total chaos...its two different things....be it war or natural disaster...

well...it just took...a few minutes to destroy...watever there was......the power of mother nature.....nothing could stop it...money...technology..power or watever there was.......nothing managed to stop it......it came...it destroyed...it left.....and there seems to be possibilities of ...either the quake or tsunami...to strike back...

i was kinda worried bout my frenz in india...well they're ok....hmm...my frenz are ok...as far as i have come to know.......well as time passes by it seems grim....for a lot ppl around the world....hmmm.....i'll update laterzz....

weird day.....

weird day.....well since i had add in earlier in the previous blog....ermm ...yeah tiz is one hell of a freaky day....lots a weird things happening...and one thing that i did not expect it to happen in da first place....now things like this reminds us not to take life for granted...life ....it might go off anytime....anything can happen anytime....just like that...kaboosh kabaam..then R.I.P....finish story...aii...the end of da chapter for sumone....

sheesh....i shouldnt have had nescafe....bleh!

well...

well...a smiling cust leaves a smile on my face ....well u can hear it in da voice ...hmm...that gives a feel good feeling alrite...:)....well nothing much...tmrw is x'mas...well earlier today whilst it...was ...ermm..i'll add in later....tonite :)...its gonna rain!!!!!!...gotto rush back...erghhhhh

hehe..i didnt update yesterday nite...well the rain is being kinda mean....i mean halfway through the journey...it poured like nobody's biz n soaked me from head to toe....aii..n when i reached home...it freaking well stopped....*grumbles...all the wunnerful words coming to my mouth*.....it came down like a storm n then within 10 to 15 minutes it stopped...aii...neramey seri illey...so i was thinking mayb i should write a letter...to the rain management ppl upstair's...;)

to whom it may concern,

i would hope u guys up there wont be so mean...soaking me everytime i leave my office...now if u wanna ...have a rainy weather might as well be fair aye...if ur gonna rain....rain properly...don't play hide n seek....now it seems u'll only attack when we're the least prepared...now....it will be helpful if u can give sum indications aye.....well watever indications u give..n.... o yeah...make ur decisions ppl either ur gonna have the rain meachanism's work properly or halt it till it works properly...its really no fun to get wet in the rain...especially after work...thank you for ur kind consideration.....any inconveniences caused is truly regretted....*whois causing who inconveniences....wonders*

Yours menacingly,

pschofreakogrumpomanic....

HaHaHa....theivamey...*upstairs wiringloose.com...moments*...okies okies...i know i know...it's bullshit all the way...i can't be sensible all the time...it's tiring.....now n then....i'll b like tiz......

now today...i have a very strong feeling to go out...n venture around the city.....hmm....will i go...i dunno....but dunno why....feel kinda excited...n have tiz must go..feeling...even if i have to....go alone...hehe...well i prefer going alone....two is a company ....i guess three will become an industry?....bleh!.....well the more ppl the more trouble it'll b for me i guess....unless...i've known them for sumtime n i feel comfortable wif them.....but most of the time i'll be an avid listener....a passive participant..in a group...bleh!..unless it's one of the whacko moments...but at home...i'm a  total freak...*pity my family member's*..they have to put up wif my antiques...hehe

but seriously it might take a minute for me to get close to sumone or it might just take me years to get into the comfortable level  in da first place wif sum one else...hmm...sumtimes i feel i give a lot of importance to my personal space....i guess that's why i am totally detached from ppl...n loom around in my own so called world n perception...out of the norm i guess..it's more like it's me n my zone..anyone who dares to breach the zone...well.....*trespassers will be severely prosecuted* ......hehe...moron ......it can get kinda lonely n boring at times...but....guess am used to it...:)...now its convenient...i dont have to depend on anyone....or worry about anything...the weird part is....it's getting harder n harder to socialize wif ppl...ppl outta my circle.......lolzz...o yeah...am back...

wat was i talking about just now....hmm...blur!!!!....am shaking my head left n right... front n back..listening to sum tunes...the lyrics..aint listening to 'em...as long as there is sum music..aii....well the music is minimal anyways..o yeah sumtimes the chorus or sum words just stick to my mind like glue....hehe...there was this cool addie in tv the other day...n that particular line just got stuck to my braincells...hahaha.....mayb i'll add it in my msn one of these days...well notin much for now....am working today....so...am browsing to sum sites....o yeah...i got it...guess i'll pay a visit to tech tv.....laterzz

rite...had a gooooood lunch.......yum yum......so stuffed up....well...had yong tow foo....hmm...well it took us a long time to reach there n i came back late to office ...hehe....well...stuffed up...

hmm...feel kinda excited today...why huh....hmm....well...mayb its one of the days again i guess...hmm.....sort off....from grumpy turn to bubbly....;)....hmm..guess have to  change ma nick to bubblocheereyoclowno....hehe....guess more tonite huh.....now if i go out tonite...now there'll b more to add in....if not...bury myself....RIP mode...;)

alrite...happenings for today.......lotsa things....me n my colleagues had lunch together.....they had me in stitches...lolzz...i was laughing all the way to n fro....n e ways...had yong tow foo...very fulling though....n yup...took extra lunch hour....n we were late :(...well...luckily....its public holz today....so....:).....now the next time if they wanna go there again...hmm...must think twice....

then after that went over to KLCC.......hahahaha.....okies dad said i can't go alone....no such thing...so he waited for me...while i went around KLCC.....okies i felt kinda bad....so i went around within one hour...i came back......there was this big tree...hugeeeeeee......awesome...n there was..tiz.....live band...... stuffs...cool....lotsa ppl....well i thought i can get a peek  of the klcc park...but lotsa ppl there...cancelled plan....just went around till i got tired of klcc n went back home....:)..to b continued tmrw...

alrite am back in office.....well of coz grumbled when they said i cannot go....i even grumbled when my dad said he wanted to wait...but wat the heck...as long as i get to go around thats ok....well....today the whole....morning i was as if...i mean i was so absent minded...i dunno wat i was thinking.....i forgot to wear my denture....lolzz...i realised this only after one hour....now if anyone notice...then pochilah...i must tell the whole story...again...theivamey! *smacks her head wif watever that is available*...aiyoo...dunno wat else is gonna happen today!!!!!!....

o yeah....i had yong tow foo yesterday rite....well the restaurant was nearby ....one of my chat frenz house....well didnt meet him though....i didnt even realise it was nearby his house ...well till sum one told me sumtin about zoo ;)...hehehe.....ne ways....well i guess thats why they have this proverb eh...so near yet so far?....conincidently i spoke to him earlier before leaving for lunch...hehe...coincidently i ended up having lunch nearby his house...lolzz...talk about coincidence....brb

grumpy....xxx....

grumpy....xxx....tats wat i've been like... for da whole week....did nothing...was just plain gumpy....so tiz are the times.....tat i pretty well know ..i should just keep my big mouth shut...n have it pad locked ...wif a solex brand pad lock...n the keys should be thrown...far away...very far away......n i should mind my lang n manners......coz i aint really a nice person to be with..during this time.......whereby the effects are...as follows...make a chatty person speechless...make a party go dull....hmm.....create unnecessary disputes....my self destructive...thoughts will be the worst ever.....n i just wont laugh..a lot.....well of coz...nowadays...i'm addicted to laughing....n it so happens..ppl laugh too....*there was a time...long long time ago.... i was trying hard to make ppl laugh nothing happens....it'll just go awry....n now when i dont give a shit...it happens...*..hehe.....watever...i'm still pretty much a serious person wif a childish outlook.....*wonders wat kinda combi is this*

where did i sway.......just pure silence..wif a grave serious face...pathethic....this was me for da whole week....either i'll be an irritating pest or the other person or watever it is ....will be irritating....me.....well i guess i'm just a pretty unpredictable moody person.....hmm..*sez: not good...not good*....frankly...i never get angry before....well once upon a time.....long long time ago.......i longed to know how it was  like to get angry....well now....lolzz...i wish i hadnt wished what i had wished for then..me n my big mouth.....i'll stop all tiz wish wash thingie story.....for now...

erghh...well....guess i'll b going around wif one liner's...not much communication....just no mood....guess now am a bit ok...well i am typing in here....tats sum improvement....hehehe...oo...i just laughed...improving i guess......ermm...well my luxury time ...it's gonna end soon....hoping to go back home soon.....

wonder wats thach been up to...been sum time ...but its a good thing i didnt meet her online tiz week...hehe...hmm new year is coming...just around the corner.....n i am getting older n older.....pathetic......x'mas is coming over 2...though am not celebrating...got an sms from a fren...now i was thinking she was in pakistan doing sum research...well tiz iz another shock..momentary... after her surprise marriage sms...lolzz...hmm...guess she is back home wif her husband....prolly finished her research...guess been ages...since i saw her...aww senti feelings...i hate tiz feeling.......erghh....need to update later tonite.....

alrite here i am.....at home......hehe...had a good meal...n i dozed off....whilst reading the paper.....got up sumtime back....feeling good....:)...n yeah...i've catched up wif the story book...now i've got the interest...am gonna catch up wit it...n guess i'll finish it soon...even if i have to speed read...or sumtin like tat....hehe...guess like i wont be enjoying the story if i do that....but i guess its okies...hmm...me n my colleague...have come up wif sumtin...now lemme see if that works....if it does...guess it'll b great if not :(..well...too bad....ermm...wonder how i'm gonna sleep tonite....gees....it'll be like yesterday....sleepless night again....tomorrow must refrain myself from sleeping...or if i do sleep...i should just continue til the next day then...hehe...overdose...:)..okies...guess i'll go offline in a while n catch up wif sumthing....or just watch tv or...prolly read da book..if i cant sleep.....hmm...counting sheeps seems like another option :)

sings " i feel good..na na na na na na na...i know that i should.....na na na na na....i feeeeelll good....i know that i wouuuld....so goood...so gooood....i've gotta u....my dear bloggie ;)"...lolzzz...till laterzz :)

signing off : psychogrumpomanic XxX...*evil laughter*..........

headache..

headache..aii....mayb ought to get some good sleep....neways experimented wif my yahoo avatar...got an avatar for myself....well it was an experiment by itself...lolzzz..creating a virtual image...more of a virtual self display....well though...its got limited movements...but its kinda fun trying the clothes n changing the hairstyles....okies okies i know...i was bored...well this wasnt bad...it was sorta interesting in a way...

wat else...nuffin much....just another day day....seems likes i should just hit the sack...

got an idea......

got an idea......mayb i'll just cut my hair...hmm...mayb short...or watever length which i prefer...get it straightened and prolly get it coloured or highlighted or wat not......hmm...a makeover...a new look for the new year aye.....hmm....well when was the last time i messed up my hair...yea...last year alrite...

well....all...the heat....n the chemicals....n good for the hair i guess....hair falling....aaaaa..but wat da heck......*evil laughter*...hehehe

was a mere.....

was a mere.....lazy pig!!!!!!....there was soooo much of calls....lolzz....well...i was a so lazy to work today...worked at my own pace...they have breaks ....away from desks....etc etc,,,.....took it to my stride...it was so pathethic...i cant even tune into any songs coz i have a very pathethic slow...pc...will be using this same pc for tmrw also..hehe...too bad...:)...hmm....now...i coudlnt even manage to move wanywhere...until i even forgot...some messages left over by my cust's....erghhh.....now my whole table is filled up wif scribbled papers...i dunno where is where....i like to scribble on da paper...when i am talking to the cust's...lolz...now that  creates more thrash than ever....n gees...hopefully i didnt miss out anything....now there was this report...n i cant remember the num...mayb i'll bring the jumle of thrash back home n check it out....hmmm....depends on my mood...

well lousy day has ended...looking forward to go back home :)

depressed...

depressed...hmm....everywhere i turn..it seems like a dead end....seems so bleak...be it in the office be it at home be it anywhere......sumtimes i wonder if i am ever a good child,fren...or even a foe.....aii....well even if sumone lends a hand to give a favour....i dont seem to...accept it....hmm...its like nothing matters anymore...this feeling scares the shit out of me...apparently no reaction no feelings just confusions n scepticisms n...pessimistic feeling...it feels like...there's just the body...there's a soul in it...but there's no life in it...something like a walking...yeah..a dead woman walking...uyir  irukku...udal irukku...ana...projanamey illey...feeling...feel like a total waste...useless...

been sum time...apart from going to work...every morning...if given the chance i would prefer not to rise from my RIP mode....coz i have nothing to look forward to...tiz atti of mine is just stressing everybody around me i guess....but its stressing me up too....duh...guess this is just not my week...n this is certainly not my day!!!!!...all this is making me  feel so fragile n i get hurt easily....this is not good at all....n all this is making me go nuts n in turn i hurt everyone around me by saying the worst thing possible....aii...*gone berserk*....not a good moment for me to blog.....will be continued laterzz...

been thinking......

been thinking......about a lot of issues lately...hmm but nothing materializing....maybe because of my low self esteem...or my dont care atti...now the prob is i guess i know wat is my prob...i just dont unnerstan why i am not taking any action....sumtimes i'll just have ideas...but its sumtin like..."tin kosong" only....got semangat...but no steps to...make it into or change it into something real time....bleh!!!!!!

hmm...well at least...i did some excercise today....i'm gonna catch up wif it n put it into routine....feel so sluggish these days....its not that i have alwiz been a hardworking brat...more of a nuisance actually....but this sluggishness...tsk tsk...

wat else....been on leave ...so kinda boring....guess....well klia plan went into the drains...sum other time :)...nothing much actually.....o yeah...a colleagues grandpa passed away.....i didnt know..sms'ed her the other day...hmm...i came to know bout it when she replied back....*i was like malathi.....aiyoo...u sms at the most inappropriate time*

well...she said sumtin bout meeting soon...i wonder how....tiz irregular off days aint gonna help either...unless i rush after work.....gees....i havent replied back....all this sms'es .....i'm going broke..:(.....well....i'll save sum money for the reload.....well..the best part is ....overseas sms'es cost me..20 cents...cool....i'm kinda happy ...well guess till when is the promo ending....oops got to check it back jan or feb...*terror*......it feels great when i can sms overseas regularly...well especially...when i can disturb thach in the middle of the nite......*evil laughter**echo...echo...echo*...hahahahahaha......

*rolls eyes and winks*.......*one of da brat moments*....2 b continued by Freakazoid Brattanic

asta la vista bloggie.....do await....my next entry ..with much anticipation aye...*winks*

sayonara................

the day.......

my bloggie......tsk tsk tsk...

the day.......well it was just fine....well i was just kinda frustrated of being soaked each day after work...well we cant stop the  rain can we...bleh!...it has to run when i have to leave the office only...okies okies...i'll stop grumbling...hmm...yeah the day was sorta fine....till...nearly midnite....monday midnite...i was surfing the net.....well had a late bath however...so i thought i'll surf the net for a while before i crash into RIP mode....but everything around me went cold....well the weather was just fine...everything was just fine...it was only me...so i decided...i'll get a nap....n...after that i was just tossing n turning ....i can't even set the alarm on my phone...i was just plain shivering.....duh!!!!!...i knew sumtin was just not rite....by 2 am ....had a high fever....wif a terrible headache....i couldnt sleep...at all..took sum panadol n dozed off...at about 4am...tsk tsk....covered my head from head to toe...wif two blankets.....n the pathethic part was...i couldnt get up...in the morning...fever was not there...but there was this terrible terrible headache....n i had this half sunken eyes....coz it was aching...the eye socket was just aching...duh...

i continued sleeping till 12pm...but to no avail...headache was still there...hmm...didnt go to work...:(....well....guess i was sleeping the whole day but the darn headache didnt go off...the whole day....today am back to normal :)

well hopefully am back to normal :)...n  now i guess..i know why i got the fever.....hmm...i've got to keep some things in check...if not i am asking for some deep shit trouble..:)

other then that...was supposed to accompany my fren to KLIA today...i cancelled it....well she's going for an interview there...i just didnt want to spoil it...coz of my current unpredictable situation....but i really wanted to go...:(...

guess..nothing much...tomorrow...is my off day too :)..guess i'll spend it lazing around at home as alwiz...:)...wat else to do....unless...if sumtin crops up...o yeah..i havent got my MC yet....gosh!

well well...

well well...yet another pathethic boring day...hehe....i let the winamp player play softly the same song over n over again...well the sound of music...as minimal as possible....will do...something to distract me....n to keep me happy a bit i guess :)...smiling like i've just entered a colgate promotion show...lolzz....cust scold also...masuk telinga kiri ....keluar telinga kanan....cust praise also....well...tat one a bit happylah....;)...

well...went over for lunch wif a colleague of mine...met over sum colleagues there....it was a blast....couldnt help laughing..well....they're kinda..plain funny....been a long time since i actually went over wif colleagues for dinner or lunch...mayb the diff time slots...or just no mood to eat over here.....:)

it's still the same song...mayb till i go back.....

working on a sunday...

working on a sunday...well its kinda boring....but its just the same for me....working or not working.....hmm..dunno...why i feel like talking to my frenz....but unfortunately ...they're all so far away.....except for vivi...she's rite in KL...n yet..i am still meeting her....aii...she'll sure turn me into a ping pong ball...n slam me to the wall...for god knows how many times...lolzz....coz after all...i'm in KL too...but wat the heck...she's a bc lady....

the other day...guess it was on friday...called joe...but seems like the meeting was cancelled...much to my dissappointment...but....it seems like...i'm gonna have a lot of difficulty to follow up wit watever meeting they're gonna have in the near future......hmm...coz my alternate off days...now there goes my hope of joining a new club.....well...all is not lost....i'll see how things go....

in the meantime....saw some beautiful pix ...well from sum one's journal....lolzz.....kinda --interesting...guess ....as for me......eventhough the events might be will captured in my mind...well...it'll just go out of focus when i have to rely on a camera...bad skills i guess ;).....so wenever...sum one comes over to me n says..."hey...can u take a photoshot of me"....i'll go "sure...why not...but forewarned....u might either view a distorted part of ur body or it'll be totally out of focus...or too much in focus...if that's okies wif u...i shall proceed"....lolzz....of coz they'll leave me alone ;)

n on friday...i watched this "manmadhan" movie....sum kinda good guy -turned -playboy -cum -rapist to avenge his brothers death and he only kills girls-playgirls..or in plain words sluts..well i guess the movie was ok...had some good tunes.....at least it was not the regular soap opera love story...

hmm...in the near future i guess they'll have a movie like a good girl-turned-playgirl-cum- ermm rapist?-to avenge her sisters death prolly and she'll only kill guys-playboys or in plain words...male sluts...(well seems like its a male dominated world out there...no proper word to associate their behaviour...well male sluts will do...or mayb my vocabs aint good enof..hehe)....guess...it will have good music scores too aye....lolz...reminds me of ...

"athey vettiyavel"...hehe..hmm...we used this thread in kalakel den...the members there came up wif all kinda stories...n there were stuffs like...who'll become the directors etc etc of their story....n i remember....i came up wif this title...dunno why...mayb coz there was this hot real time case...at that time....now i really cant remember wat it was now...but geess.....seems like the movie making project never took off.....*winks*... *rofl*...well it might have been....a hit like.... "jack the ripper"....u know....my version i guess will be "jennie the slasher"...;)...n the tag line..."Licence to slash 666, don't play play wif the worst in KL"....hehehe

gosh!!!!!!....guess sitting here...n crapping...thats the most i can do for now....gone case..3/4 nuts.....alrediiiiiiiiii

how can i forget this....there was this cust...yesterday....well its been more then a week....n yet his prob was not resolved......well he wanted the technical side to call him ASAP...i was like shit.....none of them were present....well....its hard to find tech ppl on sat n sun....hmm...first i said....prolly he has to wait till mon....then he was grumbling.....okies...the best part was he was willing to talk....mayb coz he was just plain frustrated.....wif everything....n the best part was his willingness to talk n to try again...seems fruitful....after one hour....i called him back to check....n it seems the the service was running....now...guess it was a minor thing that some ppl overlooked at......but he was pissed why the earlier staffs didnt do it.....the prob is i guess...mostly are new staffs...n things like this are bound to happen...but i cant say this to him...well i just ended the convo...by saying we'll look into the matter n closed his report...now that was a good feeling....he said i did a good job...but i guess his willingness to talk n discuss his problem to find a solution ....made me realise there might be something wong with his equipment settings....but then again.....the problem might be more then that... he tried like i told him to...n it worked....

makes me wonder...sumtimes the small things..that we tend to overlook.....thats the one which gives us the worst problems...hmmm...sumtimes i tend to look everywhere else...but not the root cause of a problem....mayb thats why we need to talk to ppl to to write somewhere....sometimes.....i figured by doing that....i realise something...instead of pushing the problem(dust) under the carpet...n make the carpet dirty..might as well....clear the dust n keep it clean....hmm.....*please overlook the carpet theory...even i dont get it*...theivamey....theivamey....hmm...

nothing much!

nothing much! really.....been lazing around here n there....of coz eating ...sleeping...well..routine...hmm...the other...my dad forced me to eat fish.....he took all the bones away..n said..." now u can eat it"....lolz....since i can be such a pain...when it comes to eating fish.....well...its kinda weird ...used a to be a fish lover.....when i was a kid.....just mention the name...sambal ikan...finishlah..u can see me waiting near the dish.....hmm..now no more...been years ...since i actually enjoyed eating...fish sambal....nowadays fish spells terror....haha....well...i still....have a little bit of the sambal...though...well cant resist the temptation of sambal...;)

well wat else....yeah..made an agreement wif dad....to go to the park....well any nearby park in the city...to do some brisk walking.....now no more...."i am not coming"...before my dad loses his temper...might as well i go for the brisk walking session...well....well...he's kinda complaining i'm gaining weight.....n tats not good for health.....well....the best part is ...i couldnt be bothered.....tsk tsk....i'm still stuffing myself wif food......n my mum will be like *shakes her head*......n

my bro's will be like aiyoo....hru gonna survive...when u get married...ur such a somberi maadu....pity ur husband!"..lolzz...of coz i'll chase em all over the house...;) ...or simply ask them to shut up n mind their own biz :)...hehe....

lolzz...well....nothing much really.....thought of crapping in here...coz been sum time since i updated.....

o yeah...came back...got to update....i read bout this article...kinda seems like more men are being single these days....the reason..its not as if....there aint much women.......women are being more independent nowadays.........most of them have a good education...lead a good lifestyle....with a good job....n whats the need for men.....in the sense...of...u know.... to come to the point of being married?...most prefer flirting or casual sex..adopt children.....hmm..they've even got sperm banks these days.....most women nowadays dont like to be tied down...they prefer to live......... a very carefree life....n they certainly don have time to think about marriage...or they dont bother about the topic at all.......hmm....now...i wonder where ...men comes into the pix...as i read along.....hmmm...well....there seems to be no happy family theory nowadays.....alas....many men...aging alone...well...needless to say...seems like most women to will be aging alone..in the near future...

very true that women nowadays are very independent......well ..mayb most ppl say its kalikalam....guess its kalikalam for men...n liberation for women...hehe ;)....but then again.....i'm lost...

aii....

aii....i cannot understan ppl at all....wait wait...i cant understand my own self....ppl can wait....bleh!...aii...

now life is so boring....boring...pathethic...n boring...pathethic...boring.......hmm...tensed up for no reason...aii...i'm waiting when this shitty job will end to go back home....just feel as if my two ears will stop functioning...cheh....feel like puking!....*erghhh*.....my patience is wearing out fast...very very fast....hopefully...i wont slam down the phone hard on sum one's earzzz....

gosh...fell really stressed up.....45 minutes n counting....counting...counting...one more pathetic day n ...i'll be on off again....counting.......

hmm...

back to nite shift today..pathethic....okies okies...hmm...back to day counting...day one....the day has just begun....*sick smiley expression*...n my dinner...lolzz..no slot...wayward back to 9...o'clock....i was like....there...goes my dinner....dont feel like eating anything today.....had a good  lunch at home...well...if today was my off day...sure have stuffed myself up...:) and have slept nicely...alrite alrite...i know...lazy pig.com.....

the other day i received an e mail from a fren of mine.....there was an interesting topic in it...hmm...kinda feel it'll bring a diff prespective ..in my life...of coz my current boring dull life...i've alwiz had starting trouble...hmm..i guess this time...i better take sum initiative..to check it out .....wat it is all about....if all goes well...mayb ...just mayb...i'll be able to figure somethings and the oppurtunity to learn more....will it work...i dunno...i've got to check more on it...n i sure will add in here...if everything goes okies or awry.....well i just have a small...little feeling in my heart..saying....this might be it...but wat de heck...things alwiz never go rite for me...so i'll just wait n see...no harm i guess...wheather for better or worst....might as will...give it a shot aye....:)

well..here i am bored ....as usual i presume....well...electricity played hide n seek yesterday..much to my annoyance.....n much to my surprise thach told me ...she no longer uses her mobile.the previous day.....since it was my off day yesterday.....i was sms'ing...here n there .....n of coz....i knew i cant sms her...well.....while i was taking my bath...i was thinking...hmm....guess this bloggie or the msn....i guess...for us to communicate...hmm....i cant torture her wif my sms'es.......aww....and then later on.....i received two sms'es stating.....the message i sent in earlier...failed....both to thach...i was like aww....n then suddenly another two message came out as message delivered....n she was like...okies i'm back...was her reply...lolzz...much to my surprise again...* i was thinking ...wat happened*...yet to catch her online....

n another....every time i ask my fren wther he has had his lunch or dinner....he'll be like..i'm having...going to have...will be having soon...something wif me n universal food sensing...hmm...7th sense...lolzzz......tried to ask another fren...for instance..wther he had dinner...well ...he said he's having his tea break...hmm....well...food.....something wif me n food aye... thach...mayb i should ask thach....*sum kinda psychic power*...*rofl*.....mayb its just coincidence....thach...u said..ur a universal food sensor also...can tell me sumtin about it? hehehe......i guess all this ppl will be thinking ...now malathi will be torturing me wif her sms'es soon.....so i get the brainwave reception...so i sms...lolzz.....a load bunch of crap bloggie...! :)..erghh....tats what happens...when u do sumtin that u dont like....nite shift!...okies...mayb i should try to learn to love my nite shift aye...guess it wont be so bad after all....hopefully...;)...hmm...its nothing new na..learn to love something that u dont like....aii...hmm..mayb i should add in later...when i am in a more stable condition...mentally...n emotionally..;)

biased....very very biased.....sumtimes i feel...the treatment in da office is so biased....hmm..mayb its just me....i make mistakes too...but..this is just too much...*dunno why i feel so angry*....everybody can do their own sweet work at their own sweet time...well some dont even do work too...well if i make mistakes then its a whole lotta big issue....diff treatment to diff ppl...mayb i have no realised the office politics all this while....or i just couldnt be bothered...the more i feel disinterested...the more later i go to work...my discipline level is going to bits n pieces n i just couldnt care more for my performance rate.....seriously i dont feel like working nowadays..mayb that will make me be more cruel to my customers.to the job....to everything......n my concentration n discipline level is just shattered bits n pieces..worst then ever.....i cant paste it back....gosh! mayb i have to pull my self back..if not i wont be able to work anywhere..erghh...gimme a break! i never liked this job....*bleh feeling*

*shakes her head*...mayb its just me....mayb i am the one with the problem..i am not viewin things in the rite perspective....or i am not...grabbing the opportunities as it arises.....no one else to be blamed....aii........either i buck up or crash out...hmm..