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When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

got this e mail from a friend of mine....thought i'll just have a copy in my blog....interesting...

To my married and unmarried friends:
> >
> > When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in
Your Arms
> >
> > On my wedding day, I carried my wife in
my arms. The bridal car
stopped
> in
> > front of our one-room flat. My buddies
insisted that I carry her out
of
> the
> > car in my arms. So I carried her into our
home. She was then plump and
> shy.
> > I was a strong and happy bridegroom.
> >
> > This was the scene of ten years ago.
> >
> > The following days were as simple as a
cup of pure water: we had a
kid,
> I
> > went into business and tried to make
more money. When the assets were
> > steadily increasing, the affections
between us seemed to ebb. She was
a
> > civil servant. Every morning we left home
together and got home almost
> at
> > the same time. Our kid was studying in a
boarding school.
> >
> > Our marriage life seemed to be enviably
happy. But the calm life was
> more
> > likely to be affected by unpredictable
changes.
> >
> > Dew came into my life.
> >
> > It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious
balcony. Dew hugged me from
> > behind. My heart once again was
immersed in her stream of love. This
was
> > the apartment I bought for her.
> >
> > Dew said, You are the kind of man who
best draws girls eyeballs. Her
> words
> > suddenly reminded me of my wife. When
we just married, my wife said,
Men
> > like you, once successful, will be very
attractive to girls. Thinking
> of
> > this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew
I had betrayed my wife. But I
> > couldn t help doing so.
> >
> > I moved Dew s hands aside and said, You
go to select some furniture,
> O.K.?
> > I ve got something to do in the company.
Obviously she was unhappy,
> because
> > I had promised her to go and see with
her. At the moment, the idea of
> > divorce became clearer in my mind
although it used to be something
> > impossible to me.
> >
> > However, I found it rather difficult to tell
my wife about it. No
matter
> > how mildly I mentioned it to her, she
would be deeply hurt. Honestly,
> she
> > was a good wife. Every evening she was
busy preparing dinner. I was
> sitting
> > in front of the TV. The dinner was ready
soon. Then we watched TV
> together.
> > Or, I was lounging before the computer,
visualizing Dew's body. This
was
> > the means of my entertainment.
> >
> > One day I said to her in a slight joking
way, suppose we divorce, what
> will
> > you do? She stared at me for a few
seconds without a word. Apparently
> she
> > believed that divorce was something too
far away from her. I couldn t
> > imagine how she would react once she
got to know I was serious.
> >
> > When my wife went to my office, Dew had
just stepped out. Almost all
the
> > staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic
eye and tried to hide
> something
> > while talking with her. She seemed to
have got some hint. She gently
> smiled
> > at my subordinates. But I read some hurt
in her eyes.
> >
> > Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning,
divorce her, O.K.? Then we live
> > together. I nodded. I knew I could not
hesitate any more.
> >
> > When my wife served the last dish, I held
her hand. I ve got something
> to
> > tell you, I said.
> >
> > She sat down and ate quietly. Again I
observed the hurt in her eyes.
> > Suddenly I didn t know how to open my
mouth. But I had to let her know
> what
> > I was thinking. I want to divorce. I raised a
serious topic calmly.
> >
> > She didn t seem to be much annoyed by
my words, instead she asked me
> > softly, why? . I m serious. I avoided her
question. This so-called
> answer
> > turned her angry. She threw away the
chopsticks and shouted at me, you
> are
> > not a man! .
> >
> > At that night, we didn t talk to each other.
She was weeping. I knew
she
> > wanted to find out what had happened to
our marriage. But I could
hardly
> > give her a satisfactory answer, because
my heart had gone to Dew.
> >
> > With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a
divorce agreement which stated
> that
> > she could own our house, our car, and
30% stake of my company. She
> glanced
> > at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a
pain in my heart. The
> woman
> > who had been living ten years with me
would become a stranger one day.
> But
> > I could not take back what I had said.
> >
> > Finally she cried loudly in front of me,
which was what I had expected
> to
> > see. To me her cry was actually a kind of
release. The idea of divorce
> > which had obsessed me for several
weeks seemed to be firmer and
clearer.
> >
> > A late night, I came back home after
entertaining my clients. I saw
her
> > writing something at the table. I fell asleep
fast. When I woke up, I
> found
> > she was still there. I turned over and was
asleep again.
> >
> > She brought up her divorce conditions:
she didn t want anything from
me,
> > but I was supposed to give her one month
s time before divorce, and in
> the
> > month s time we must live as normal life
as possible. Her reason was
> > simple: our son would finish his summer
vacation a month later and she
> didn
> > t want him to see our marriage was
broken.
> >
> > She passed me the agreement she
drafted, and then asked me, He Ning,
do
> you
> > still remember how I entered our bridal
room on the wedding day? This
> > question suddenly brought back all those
wonderful memories to me. I
> > nodded and said, I remember . You
carried me in your arms, she
> continued,
> > so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry
me out in your arms on
the
> day
> > when we divorce. From now to the end of
this month, you must carry me
> out
> > from the bedroom to the door every
morning.
> >
> > I accepted with a smile. I knew she
missed those sweet days and wished
> to
> > end her marriage with a romantic form.
> >
> > I told Dew about my wife s divorce
conditions. She laughed loudly and
> > thought it was absurd. No matter what
tricks she does, she has to face
> the
> > result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her
words more or less made me
> feel
> > uncomfortable.
> >
> > My wife and I hadn t had any body contact
since my divorce intention
was
> > explicitly expressed. We even treated
each other as a stranger. So
when
> I
> > carried her out for the first day, we both
appeared clumsy. Our son
> clapped
> > behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his
arms. His words brought me a
> sense
> > of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting
room, then
> > to the door, I walked over ten meters with
her in my arms. She closed
> her
> > eyes and said softly, Let us start from
today, don t tell our son. I
> > nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put
her down outside the door. She
> went
> > to wait for bus, I drove to office.
> >
> > On the second day, both of us acted
much more easily. She leaned on my
> > chest. We were so close that I could
smell the fragrance of her
blouse.
> I
> > realized that I hadn t looked at this
intimate woman carefully for a
> long
> > time. I found she was not young any
more. There were some fine
wrinkles
> on
> > her face.
> >
> > On the third day, she whispered to me,
The outside garden is being
> > demolished. Be careful when you pass
there.
> >
> > On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I
seemed to feel that we were
> > still an intimate couple and I was holding
my sweetheart in my arms.
The
> > visualization of Dew became vaguer.
> >
> > On the fifth and sixth day, she kept
reminding me something, such as,
> where
> > she put the ironed shirts, I should be
careful while cooking, etc. I
> > nodded. The sense of intimacy was even
stronger.
> >
> > I didn t tell Dew about this.
> >
> > I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps
the everyday workout made
me
> > stronger. I said to her, It seems not
difficult to carry you now.
> >
> > She was picking her dresses. I was
waiting to carry her out. She tried
> > quite a few but could not find a suitable
one. Then she sighed, All my
> > dresses have grown fatter. I smiled. But I
suddenly realized that it
was
> > because she was thinner that I could carry
her more easily, not
> > because I was stronger. I knew she had
buried all the bitterness in
her
> > heart. Again, I felt a sense of pain.
Subconsciously I reached out a
> hand
> > to touch her head.
> >
> > Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it s
time to carry mum out. He
said.
> To
> > him, seeing his father carrying his mother
out had been an essential
> part
> > of his life. She gestured our son to come
closer and hugged him
tightly.
> I
> > turned my face because I was afraid I
would change
> > my mind at the last minute. I held her in
my arms, walking from the
> > bedroom, through the sitting room, to the
hallway. Her hand surrounded
> my
> > neck softly and naturally. I held her body
tightly, as if we came back
> to
> > our wedding day. But her much lighter
weight made me sad.
> >
> > On the last day, when I held her in my
arms I could hardly move a
step.
> Our
> > son had gone to school. She said,
Actually I hope you will hold me in
> your
> > arms until we are old.
> >
> > I held her tightly and said, Both you and I
didn t notice that our
life
> was
> > lack of such intimacy.
> >
> > I jumped out of the car swiftly without
locking the door. I was afraid
> any
> > delay would make me change my
decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened
> the
> > door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won t
divorce. I'm serious.
> >
> > She looked at me, astonished. The she
touched my forehead. You got no
> > fever. She said. I moved her hand off my
head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I
can
> > only say sorry to you, I won t divorce. My
marriage life was boring
> > probably because she and I didn t value
the details of life, not
> > because we didn t love each other any
more. Now I understand that
since
> I
> > carried her into the home, she gave birth
to our child, I am supposed
to
> > hold her until I am old. So I have to say
sorry to you.
> >
> > Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She
gave me a loud slap and then
slammed
> > the door and burst into cry. I walked
downstairs and drove to the
> office.
> >
> > When I passed the floral shop on the way,
I ordered a bouquet for my
> wife
> > which was her favorite. The salesgirl
asked me to write the greeting
> words
> > on the card. I smiled and wrote, I ll carry
you out every morning
until
> we
> > are old.
> >

simply....

Who gives to all a helping hand?

But bows his head to no command.....

And higher laws doth understand?

Inventor,genius,superman? ?.....

He is Aquarius

spot this on a website...thought...just kinda add it in the bloggiee.......

aiiiiiyooooooooooo.....

aiiiiiyooooooooooo.....just when ppl wanna go back home only lah this rain thunder storm or watever will...eeeeee.....*shakes her head*........just when i thought...i can just lie down for a kutty kutty nap........all this have to happen...n god knows how long i have to be here......tsk tsk......from morning staring this pc only.....well...i put myself on break should be going back soon...no mood to do OT...well havent been doing OT's for god knows how long......;)

yesterday...i read in the paper ....sumtin about...call centre agent's.....lolzz...just had a smile on my face...well....if ur having first hand experience guess u'll know wats it like...but many...are just plain rotten hell...i guess in many ways...mine is not that bad...there's many...i guess they'll just have  the workers as paid answering machines...with the exception of having a heart beat :)....well....ur being paid to get scolded...lolzz...a good term...sometimes we're just like sponges aye...just absorb....other ppl's problem....the pressure is intense...thats why ppl come n go....coz....some nasty ppl ..so called cust's are only good at...making u sick...bad energies...created....well "some"....lots of them...are nice actually...but one rotten specimen will just spoil the day....

well of coz..stress is everywhere...in any job....u've got to learn to live with it....or find another job or let it eat u...till u go RIP....bleh! hehe...the after effects....talking to strangers aint that hard...coz basically u'll have a subject to discuss about....but outbound...especially telemarketing...aii....thats kinda though...as i read in the articles....well they're used to phone slammed down to to their ears...or get four letter words as gd morning wishes....

.i seriously never ..well i cant remember when was the last time i called a call centre myself :)....guess i'm not sumone who likes to use the phone or sumtin...if i can solve it by myself i rather do it on my own...or go to watever means of solving rather then calling sum centre...haha..this coming from me...lolzz....guess i really dont have the patience to wait over the phone...but if  watever i am using ...if i can only get access to it via a call centre...then...what choice do i have....coz after all...when ur calling the call centre....its a call centre.....hmm....it depends on the management of a company.....if its topsy turvy...then pochilah....

.if ur working for a lousy management...every call every day..will just be plain hell...n u just get pushed around here n there...u''ll absord n absorb..n one fine day...u blow ur head out to unfortunately mayb to a nice ucstomer or mayb a pthetic cust....well the chances are...there'll be free publicity...in the dailies...hehe....talk about being famous aye..all for the wrong reasons.......it's not the case wif effective management.....

seriously.....i dont think i'll ever raise my voice to sumone...especially a stranger which i have never met before. over the phone...but unless....if they treat me like sum piece of rubbish...then..thats sumtin else....rite....but basically...calling sum one...n just scolding them...it'ss just not my style...unless...they really...really...deserve it....n that too...will be sum one very close to me.....not any tom...dick or harry......

but time n tide..changes...mayb..soon....after sumtime...if i read back this blog....i might have turned into a disastrous monster aii....why am i so confused rite now.......nothing is ....should i just post it...or...hmm...i'll read it back later....one thing for sure...soon i'll be half deaf,white haired,deactivated....mentally n emotionally drained...specimen..wif blurr vision....*throws her hand on the air....n reminds herself...to shut up....n it seems like the rains gonna stop...*

:)..guess its gonna stop..i need sum rest....i'll cya tonite again bloggie....

sleepy.com

sleepy.com....i dunno how...but sum one offered to change shift for the whole week....hehe...now i am doing day shifts...tq to that cute lady that changed shift wif me....the worst part..all my teammates aint here.....duh!...they'll be coming later....n i feel so sleepy n even today i got the latest slot ever lunch....aii...

i feel so sleepy....not that i didnt sleep..i did...hmm...mayb lazy...i dunno wat it is...but its kinda pathethic...hehe....yesterday nite i miscalled almost half my teammates....well...they might have gone...malathi!!!!!!!!!!!! u lil brat!!!!! wait till u come back to office tmrw!!!!!!!...tsk tsk...hehe

hmm...okies i was running late to work....so i practically stuffed up da maggie goreng tat my mum made for me.....lolz...maggie...my fav...okies now i guess....aii.....sapthethu ellam nenjiley ninkira mathiri oru feeling.....not feeling..appedi thaan irukathu.........cheh!...no peace to eat maggie also...thats whylah swallow summore...tsk tsk....:(....sleep sum more...*smacks her head*...aii *shakes her head*....malathi...malathi....wats going to happen to me?...tsk tsk...bloggie..bloggie...i'll continue during my luxury time later..............................

here i am on my luxury time...munching away....huh pathethic!...we're supposed to queue up to pay..one lady just snooped rite in front of me n paid n the other guy went straight to the counter after that to pay....duh!....the cashier ...was like hmmm... i was like hmm...like as wif a few bottles vinegar had been poured on my face...let the dude pay...so there i was...i was thinking who else gonna come over n cut the line... n give me that pathethic sympathetic look or smile which says....sorry i cut ur line...but wat to do...i have been infected by kiasuism...but ne ways.....who pays first huh..u or me....but sorry u lost the game look?....puhleezz...tension.com saje...well most of the time...i live on my own sweet world...well sumtimes...things like this...just makes me go hmmmm....

now am feeling ok....:)...now the whole row is filled wif ppl...my teammates n all...:)....well lotsa calls...the funny part was....well i was talkin to this cust...well...my voice just went off....aii.....thats the worst part....n it happened a few times.....after that.....aii...need to drink lotsa water......hmm...read sum stories in the paper....hmm ...kid dies after eating jelly....i nearly booked a place...well lets say heaven aye.....a few years ago....back in campus there was no regrigerator n stuffs.....so i had this jellies wif me...i thought its supposed to be....watery...well most jellies are....well thats what i thought ...i swallowed....n the thing choked...me.....i was like...yeah yeah...i'm going to die...can i get a reservation in heaven....i havent considered hell kinda thing.....

wat to do...suffocating......i coughed n coughed.....thank my lucky stars...the jelly came..out........n i was like.....o i'm still alive......so here i am recalling past...n so many stuffs...in newspapers nowadays..whenever i see the headlines...i'll be like.....should i stop reading the paper or wat?..........................

:)

well well..haven't updated my dear bloggie.....hmm.....well lazing around at home...spotted sum nice articles...in the paper...yet to read it.....well have to b back to work tmrw....hmm...spotted a cool part time job...unfortunately...the working hours....n the distance...just clashes...seems like a very cool environment...but then again...:)....its just too bad...well....it's okies...

o yeah,....its kartikey now....kinda beautiful to see the row of oil lamps....lit up...:)....well....aint going to my unc's house today i guess.....hmm...alrite...i'll update tonite...gonna watch movie first..

o wat the heck...no mood to write these days...:)....hmm....the other day my fren ami asked if i finished reading that book which i borrowed from her...i dunno for what  reason i simply cant finish the book :(....well she told me she brought back a few other books....:) cool...but i just have no mood to finish this book at all....aii...its not that the book is not interesting enough...hmm...well....mayb its just boring...or i just dont have any mood to read books for the moment.....hmm.....*wat da heck*

tsk tsk....

tsk tsk....aww.... i cant move my neck.....   i didnt sleep properly....severe pain...well i thought. it'll be ok...came to work...it was ok....a bit...n now i have it again...was thinking of taking mc...well the hassle of going to hospital n all that duh!...here i am withstanding it...n it seems to be going worse....gosh....now its my lunch tiime...guess i sprained it...hmm

feel so uncomfortable...one accidental move n it sends ...shock waves...to my whole system...theivamey.....mayb i should just lie down on my desk for a while....see how things goo,,....

gu gu ga ga gigi...aww my gigi

:)...hehe...alrite...gigi's back to normal...palle vali okies ippoluthu....ne ways....i guess i still need to gurgle wif warm water...salted...warm water...hmm..i can munch now...hehe...much to my delight...kinda spoil my appetite...when i've got to eat like a spoilt blender...hmm...well kinda awful when the food grinding process...gets abruptly disturbed...hmm...now okies...can munch food...properly.......

:)...hmm...was thinking bout this switching jobs n stuff...i guess i'll just wait...u know...kinda i'm sure i'll see sum light at the end of the tunnel one of these days...now why should i rush myself...might as well...take things as they come na..walk down the tunnel wif sum hope....well...of coz....i should put sum effort in trying to find a new job....things just down come flying from no where do they.....well...i'll just have to wait i guess...:)...hmm....wat else...guess nothing much...well...guess i'll update my lil bloggie later...read sum news in the paper...hmm....much to my dismay...havent read the paper properly for these past few days.....hmm...

okies bloggie...laterzz i guess...:)

aww...man

aww...man...toothache.....aiiyayayayai.....hmm..too much of sweet things...n too much of muruklu's...n wat nots for deepavali...the after effects of deeparaya....hmm....have to pay a visit to the dentist anyway...good timing for a toothache...*grumbles away*......hopes that this is a miniscule side effect...it'll go off....well i can only hope ...i wonder if that nasty toothache....wiil b persistent...in its attempts...to make me suffer...bleh.!...*wonders...should have entered drama school....or....applied for a job as a clown...*...snaps off...

here i am on my luxury time...dunno wat to do...dunno wat to write....mayb i ought to relax....take my own sweet time to waste my time....of coz...it aint long till i get to start workin again....*grumbles away again*

n how can i forget...another after affect of major festivals like this...tsk tsk...weight gain...well wat to expect...they've got food everywhere...n i just cant stop muching this n that....some kinda muruku eating routine...then biscuits...then gosh...guess by then end of this month...i'll be kinda big...:)...so much for my eating habits ...tsk tsk.....of coz the two week annual leave has helped me to gain weight...now this...hehe....wat the heck....

hmm...

o my god....

o my god....such a wunnerful day..PLZZZ...soo many calls...a lot of ppl on leave.lotsa ppl quit the job.....n i seriously have no mood watsoever to work....hmmm...kinda bored n lonely..wifout.....two of my good colleagues..well...my whole team is on leave i guess.....feel like an idiot..i could have just asked around  to change my off days...erghh..gone two days of triple pay...heartache...aii...

che che..n e ways...feel very sleepy....bored....n pathetified...am just waiting to go back home...hmm...before that...i was thinking of getting myself a pair of shoes today.....hmm...supposed to go wif my dad...

well got roughly 3 more hours to go...before i can reach home...tmrw will be a much more wonderful day....my ears n throat...is just giving up today....seriously no mood....just plain grumpy....grumpy....grumpy....

bored n sleepy.....

bored n sleepy...thats what i feel rite now...am smashing sum songs here....u name it...from oldies to downright...watever they have saved in the folders.....just to keep me awake...hehe...not much calls today...since its raya,....the worst part tmrw is off day for me...gonelah my triple pay...tsk tsk.....:(...but then again...prolly i'll go to my aunties house...been sum time since i actually enjoyed a public holiday...:)...the road...is superbly....how to say...free of cars....now KL wif out cars...kwang kwang kwang...time to learn driving...hehe...naah juz joking...;)

hmm....brought sum meehoon to work to day...there wont be any shops around...as if even if there were any shops...i wont go anyway...hmm.. just felt like bringing down the meehoon that my mum did for breakfast to work...hehe...

i just cant figure out wat websites to go through...mayb sick n tired of the net.....pukeable....alrite alrite bloggie.....i'll browse sum more...till sum one calls in again.....erghh....hmm...head banging till my head goes bleeding....duh!...otak sudah tepu...aii...

:)

alrite...been sum time...i guess bloggie....hmm...nothin much really.....deepavali....yeah rite...had been lazing at home for deepavali...well to day am back to work...hmm...my uncle's family ....will be visiting us today n here i am at work...so boring...

hmm...yah another colleague is going off...she got another job....n that makes two....well these guys are simply wunnerful...but...its a good thing they got another job..:)...of coz...i cant be nasty without my partner in crime can i?...hehe...;)....but wat the heck...malathi has alwiz been such a brat....or a pain..hmm...aka the silent killer.....lolzz...

guess...me have sum communications prob...well  i reckon..its better if i dont open my big fat mouth....coz either i'll talk a whole lot of bunch of crapz.....or just sting like a bee..hmmm now .either i make sumone laugh...or i'll just shatter sum one's heart just like that...hurt their feelings or make e m cry......aii..malathi malathi...:)...*pats herself on the shoulder*.....or mayb *i should take a hammer n bang my head*...well now malathi is in a grumpy season...hmm...i dont feel like smiling or laughing these days....not like i used too......n i just feel like breakin the rules...okies okies...tiz is the grumpy season.....u know dont play play wif the grumpiest in kl season...lolz.....duh! where did the lolz come..... from...aii...hmm... i'll add in more later...nowadays...silence is golden....less talk n more sleep better or how bout..less talk more eat or ...okies okies...i'll shut up...n get lost from here...:)

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Dear Blog,

hmmm...nothing much to write in here,just thought i'll drop by...kinda bored ...n sleepy....yup...got startled from sleep about 6 times yesterday night...got up with a headache....was ok today earlier....hmm..now have to do OT aii...for this whole week...well guess this whole week....aii...pathethic...but wat to do...my eyes has already sinked into my eye socket....lolzz...pathethic description....hehe....well wat else bloggie...feel kinda tired n slow today...thank god..i had training today...if not i dunno wat i might have done...

hopefully i can get a sound sleep tonight.....if the same thing happens tonight...finishlah....aii...headache.com.my....hmm..am going back now...bored n tired...