hehe ...part 2
08.31.04 (8:43 am) [edit]how could i have forgotten this...*smacks her head*..i met my frenz on sunday...aug 29 2004...it was simply wunnerful...out of the blue....they asked me wther i'd like to follow em or not.....well i did....n i was glad i did.....got to meet...raquel's baby....so cute..lil baby...30 days old...teeny weeny....well i was like that 25 years ago....hehe...come to think about it...i've grown up so fast...aii boring...had some time refreshing old times...it was fun....but later on we went over to mcdee...
boy i had a great time there....havoc in mcdee..... i can say....well i had some fun rendering my working atmosphere havocs n menaces...n another fren....whois also in cust svc...was sharing her experience....now in my group of classmates..three of us did the same course...okies one is still continuing master...mayb she'll go for phd too..forever sok lai...but the other gal..she did her masters n sha's working in a laboratory environment....lolzz...sum kinda CSI job...the way she narrated to us...we were like...gosh lady we're trying to eat mcdee here....well the other ...thil...still studying...guess she's bc too...wif her masters...aii...aiii...
me n raj...aii....were mumbling all the while at mcdee....hmm...but its a good experience...this cust svc job....mayb we'll be able to venture to other sectors....well where have i swerved too....yeah...it was whole load of fun...at one point raj told us a joke where we just cant laugh anymore.....my stomach...my cheeks were just aching...haha...hmm..we were planning to get the other gals to come around...but guess its impossible half of them working..half of them still studying....aii....well i might not be surprised if sum of them have actually settled down.....hmm...
thinking bout that....things like this....snaps me off...now n then...i am an adult now...like it or not.......n i cant help thinking how time flew so fast....even as i am writing this..time is ticking away....am getting older n older each day..each second.... .:(.....it was juz like yesterday....n now some of them have became mothers n so on....guess...soon we'll be grannies....haha....we'll b reminiscing about wat happened in our lives if we still live up to that age...hmm....we will have vast experiences by then i guess.... i wonder will i ever meet some of them again...n if i do..will i remember them or will they remember me the wide eyed kid wif blank expressions....okies blurrism to the core to be exact?.....hehe
hmmm...an online fren of mine had his school demolished recently....i wonder will i only be able to meet them all only if such thing happens or...mayb...u know if they have sum kinda jubilee dinner or sumtin...i can meet em? hmm..if my school is to be demolished...i will go back....i'll just sit there...n recall back....good n bad memories....soo many things.....i'll just walk around or sit enjoy that moment....remember the assembly...the choirs in the hall...the competitions...etc etc..before the school goes off for good....hopefully the school will be aroun for a long time...:)...even if i dont.....hmm.not sure if i left anything out...suddenly feel so glum...mayb i ought to sleep..get some rest so that i can manage tmrw's havoc!...by the way...why do i have to write so much...cheh!
hehe....
08.31.04 (12:39 am) [edit]hmm...the blog didnt function well today....aii...had soo much to write earlier today...lolzz..i dunno where to start,,,so many things...but let me cut n paste sumtin first
De bitterest tears shed over graves r 4 words left unsaid n deeds left undone..Harriet Beecher Stowe.....
well from where shall i start...been sum time....kinda forgot...aii...lotsa lotsa things....well they had this singing competition in tv.....so there i saw this dance group...n immediately i recognised them....well the leader was the instructor of the dance club..he was a wonderful classical dancer,widely known for his wonderful odyssey renditions..in campus....well i was alwiz wishing....u know kinda to learn this classical or semi classical or watever...never in my wildest imagination did i knew that it will come true one fine day when this guy came over n invited who ever's interested to join them...so i got this chance....so at first i was rather reluctant...but then i joined wif two of my coursemates joining together....it was pure fun...n little did i know that they'll prepare us...to dance on the stage ....now for shows organised by the club....i was like gees...wasnt a good dancer...but i practised...n practised n practised...it was a whole lot of fun...well wat if i wasnt a good dancer...i got the experience to dance on stage...live sum more...n hey it was multiracial...cool...
was involved wif group performances....hmm...it was wonderful..then i had the chance to be the sponsor head of another show,,,,in campus....it was a big responsibility...never in my life had i held such big responsibility....i was so tensed up...i actually lost so much of weight....n sleep...finally the show went ok....i was very happy....very very happy that everything was finally over...then thats it.....i left the club......things were too taxing as i had severe problems with my thesis...thats another long story....i missed the dances n the times i spent there...waah...they applied thick make ups on our faces,,.....well it was then i realised wat it was to be backstage....then i was involved in another show accidentally...hmmm......now to organise a show n to run one...hmm..no easy feat...waah...got so much to write...wat else....
after that lost contact...n now the club..is doing fine....really happy for the instructors...they're a bunch of talented ppl..:)...now today is merdeka......malaysia's 47th independence day.....now let's talk bout merdeka....hehe...i pestered my dad....asked me to bring me out...n yeah...i got a glimpse of merdeka nite...it pretty well reminded me of thaipusam...well coz the crowd...i've neva liked crowd...n jam packed crowd is a big no no....lolzz....so i just went cruising on my dad's bike...pity him...hehe...saw some live MTV shots i would say....lolzz...pity my dad .....mayb i ought to give my parents some training eh...let them see lotsa MTV video clips...u know what...i guess thats it if i do that...hehehe...they'll go..... no more MTV....unsubscribe...hehe...well...make them well prepared to bring me around in bangsar..okies okies...i wont do tat i guess....
hmm...o yeah..earlier that day...i tried to dance ...just to check...o boy...my body was totally unresponsive...felt like a brick...with rusted joints...was sweating like hell....but felt good...been some time...just jumping around was great..to actually dance my heart out...well no one was home anyways....hehehe...so...it was fun..o yeah...got some new dresses yesterday...hehe....well i'm more like a wear n tear person...well since i've actually torn everything in my possession well it was time for some new stuffs...i let my parents do the shopping....me the lazy bum as usual....didnt go...even if i go..i wont buy anything...BLeh! waste of time money n energy only...hehe...
wat else ...now my brainz kinda jam packed...mayb i'll edit tonite..i'll write sum more....mayb in a diff blog...this is too much...aiyooooo
sadist?....
08.25.04 (7:38 pm) [edit]sadist?..am i?...well guess i am...hehe......*evil grin*......yes i am...hmm...well at some point i feel like the devil is doing some kinda of salsa and cha cha around my head..u know....grinning evilly at me...of coz.....i'll respond back.....wif an equally evil grin of mine....sadism to the core...detachment of emotions....:roll:
of coz occasionally the lil' angel will pop over ......she does a beautiful ballet n mesmerizes me wif her grace and her lil wand.......n gently she'll knock my head n sez..."my child...what r u doing,behave my child....i will not hesitate to smash ur head .....*wif an angelic smile*........now tat means....my angel means bizness if i dont follow wat she says...lolzzz...(because the wand will turn into a hammer)...aaa.....sadist sez...she'll continue later....
...well am totally confused i am just editing watever i wrote juz now....hmm...wat else to write....nowadays am detaching myself from practically everything....aii...worrisome.....hmm....my luxury time is gonna end soon....
dunno wat...
08.24.04 (9:04 am) [edit]gees...i dunno wat to update in here....have not read thacha's story yet....tmrw have to go to work...lolzz....pathetoenzyme has started its work...that means pathethified to go to work...hehehe
well spent the day watching olympics....hmm..enjoyed watching the gymnastics gala...all the artistic winners....were relaxed n they gave a sporting show ...they did back their routine...had a glimpse of rhythmic gymnastics.....it was interesting...guess i'll miss it too...the anonymous compere was nice...funny...n i had a great time watching the kids wif their performances....saw the coming olympics hosts china ..did a lil bit of gymnastic preview....but later in the day...had a bad headache......n something is in my right eye...i've try to get it out for the past two days...sometimes its ok...sometimes...its as if something is bugging my eye....aiyoo...got to do something bout it..:)..aii...well..betta go to sleep....
flunked it.....again...
08.22.04 (11:49 pm) [edit]flunked it again...aii.....i was asked to do the test again as the previous result it seems got lost...aiyoo...annoying....i had to sit over the same papers again...eee......sum biz reasoning n mathemathical n personality yucks test.........like a lazy bum i went over to the comp lab...sat in front of the dull screen...n started answering...my mind was everywhere but it does not want to register what i was reading...it doesnt want to analyze and deduce...wat i was reading....pah!....then i was like stop kidding urself n get back to the questions dimwit...well...i did it slowly coz ..its not compulsary to finish everything ....i hate it when its clocked...who likes exam....especially abnormal slow ppl like me....aii.....to think that i have to actually regurgigate all the data's in a specified time frame n that to correctly matching the ans as deviced by the question setter as a way to measure intelligence...hmm...gees....stress....now lets not swerve to far...
my brainz has become lazy....i refused to think thats the problem....the brainz went blank....n it refused to cooperate n i couldnt do the maths stuff...i just couldnt get it...gosh....it wasnt hard...i just couldnt think...maybe i should have gone tmrw...i was still tired from the night shift earlier on...i came back home n slept after the exxie today...hehe...after all...the worst thing that could happen is...i'll flunk the test n lose the job...its okies...i'll get another then,,..:)...hmm must give sum excercise to my brain cells hehe.....well...today n tmrw is my off day...yippie!...well...i'll browse on for a while then maybe i'll update later on...if sumthing is up again..o yeah....i was supposed to read thach's story...hmm...aiyoo 140 pages...:)
aaa....
08.22.04 (12:26 am) [edit]hmm..all this olympics...hehe...today i saw weightlifting....aa...all those ppl were just using their full force my god...it was a men's event....and each of them carrying more then 200.00 kg's....i was like aiyoo....kinda worried each time the lift fails...sum one might just snap their spines of....the energy n force that has to be used....hmm...all this games n the spirit of the ppl involved...well guess...its nice,wonderful or simply awesome...n finally its like all the hard work paid off.....well as for the weightlifter....a 4 times gold medallist...well it was his last stint for greece....the ovation was simply awesome...though he had to settle for a bronze and he retired on stage itself...by leaving his shoes on stage...well....the crowd were wild....it was a wonderful farewell i guess...hmm...well the sportmen had to hold back his tears i guess....i guess it should be really wonderful to be appreciated and cared for like that....:)...well i was all smiles...it was a nice moment.....guess i wont forget it either for a long time to come...but each time when an athelete fails due to injuries...well...its kinda sad...but i guess some of them have really true grits when they finish off what they started....hats off...to them :)
well yesterday was full of athlectics.....well when i saw merlene ottey...44yrs old....sprinting in 100m....well its was like WoW!...but i guess she didnt make it to the finals....:(...but hats off to her competitive spirit and i guess her love for sprinting....:)...aaa.....well..i missed a lot i guess...coz i was busy sleeping like a pig.....aii.....*grumbles away*
aiyoo!
08.20.04 (1:54 am) [edit]aiyooo...i spoilt it today......hmmm....didnt listen to the cust...now he was right too....i was trying to explain....wat i meant....but guess i made a mistake ....but that cust didnt want to listen to me either...i got pissed off for no reason.....aii disconnected the blady line.....che.....this is a bad week for me....where's my sense's gone too....
:(...rotten day...rotten week......i just hate it....well...its too bad for the cust...n its just too bad for the cust that i was not so sane today....aii....*leaves with a guilty face*
wat a totally unenthusiastic day....part 2
08.19.04 (4:13 am) [edit]well where was i....o yeah half way through olympics..."blurrism to the core"...dimwit....well....that was one of the incidents of the day.....the other unexpected side was of course...i got a call from one of the comp's that i applied.....it was so long back...i thought...naah!....then i got the voice mail...so yesterday after i woke up...took my own sweet time to call them...hmm....i was expecting something like...."congrats!u got the job"...or "sorry, u didnt get the job!"...now wat i heard was totally out of the scope....."sorry! we couldnt trace the results for the exam that u sat for"...can u sit for test again...anytime ..anydate?"....i was like....she was saying something else...but by then...my mind has already blocked wat she was saying....guess she was mumbling ...as i was thinking "wat! do the exxie again! oh noooo!...i neva fared well in exams...wats this doing it again!" gosh!.....of coz i said...ma'am...sure i'll inform u ma'am.........hehe.....(n that place is so darn far way)
then i told my bro...."they lost the results....anytime...any date....cool or not?".....he was like..."all this weird things happen to u only lah malathi!"...hehe..we had a good laugh though.....:)...hmm the rest of my family members were like..."u did the exam or not"....hehehe....well come to think about the pain....its subsiding....at last...guess i was too bc typing i actually forgot about it.....:)...*tries to be a bit enthusiastic...coz it's her luxury time now----dinner!*-----#less on of the week: neva skip ur meal!#....i had to be happy wif strawberry flavoured milk.......had to stay away from my fav nescafe "cafe latte"......hope the pain wont come back.....aii :(
wat a totally unenthusiastic day....
08.19.04 (1:29 am) [edit]gees...this is just too much..the whole thing dissappeared again......eeeeeeee.......now i have to write it again....tsk tsk....aiyoo....i didnt update for the past two days...well was busy eating n sleeping.....but yesterday i had some interesting things happenin...but b4 that...i feel soo tired today....i couldnt sleep till the wee hours of yesterday morning ..that is after trying to watch fear factor n wat not's in tv...but to no avail...the bloated feeling was there...wif a bad stomach ache...even my mum woke up at 4.00...still cant...till....4.30 am....then got up again at 6.30 am..slept back n finally woke up at 10.50 am...bad day....bad stomach ache....gees...
here . i am ...tired wif a dead pan face at the office...typing all this nonsense...coz i really am all time low for the moment....hmm...tired....aii
yesterday was not bad....had a glimpse of olympics...had my own....ooo's n aaaa's each time the gymnast's did their routine's.....awesome....then there was swimming...boxing....reminds me of the phrase "fly like a butterfly..n sting like a bee"....muhammad ali...waah...tat was a time....hear a lot bout him from my parents...saw some of his fights too....talking bout legends like pele...n etc etc....hmm...now where was i...yeah rowing...human motorboats? gosh!...superb....saw shot puts......hmm...i'll update in a while
duh!
08.15.04 (4:01 pm) [edit]now day before yesterday i did not have enof sleep...after work yesterday...i had dinner...was basically like a drug addict...hehe...swaying here n there...sleepily....well...i had sum sleep...after that i took my bath... n all that saw tv for a while....ermm...couldnt sleep...so i went online ...met my frenzz...n decided..to finally fall asleep aroun 1.45 am...tossed n turned..though tired...couldnt seem to fall asleep....then when i was just...well when i thought i was sleeping.....suddenly a loud crash!!!!!
i thought wat the hell!...i quickly got up....n checked it out....well it was out of my view i guess..my dad checked it out.......aii...a tree branch fell down crashing two cars......at my neighbourhood..i was like...geess...suddenly it seems so many ppl were around the incident guess...everybody woke up...i was like.... any one trapped in there?...luckily no one was hurt....
well tried to sleep again...well....workers came over to clear the road n what not.....gees...noisy...guess couldnt sleep until aroun 3 am....finally fell asleep.....here i am in the office at 8 am...duh!!!.....so much for changing shift....for once i thought i could have sticked to the schedule...but another headache...they are gonna tos sum accts again...another hectic week....but guess...i'll leave it first..coz tmrw is my off day....hehehe..:)
thought of adding sum lines...tat i plan to fall flat on my face once i go reach home...hahahaha...........well today has not been such a bad day after all...hmm...quite surprisingly...........ahem ahem...i shall not open my mouth yet...until i log out from my pc....
aaa....sunday again....
08.14.04 (6:24 pm) [edit]wat am i doing on a sunday? working of coz....well...didnt have enof sleep.....guess it was less then 4 hours....hmm...woke up wif a slight headache n painful eyesockets....haha....n not to mention the echo in my ears....n a worked up throat.....well....just came to work...the day has not started yet....hmm...but i am sure waiting it to end....then after 5pm ...i'll be a freebird...well...:)
nowadays...me n my colleague....we'll joke about in the office...(maybe we're just getting bored wif the job i presume)...that we're going deaf,slowly going blind,stammering like hell....oh yeah....hair loss...n not to mention such a deactivated lifestyle...having soar voices.....short tempered like hell....we're gonna rot n go mad soon....hehe....guess we just hate the job.....guess we have nothing better to do :)...but non stop polumbufying for the time being...hehe....biasalah...hmm......why i am not looking for a new job? hmm...maybe coz i dont want to go through the hassle of getting a new job,start from scratch...etc etc...maybe its just the fear of the unknown...but if i dont try i'll neva know....it's all in the mind....(so easily said-its all in the mind)...but the worst part is that my contract is ending soon...ermm..ok....if the contract is not renewed.......too bad...have to look for a new job...but if they renew my contract then...aii....the same old story again....i still have loads of annual leave...am planning to take a week off...lolzzz...:)....n go around the city wif my colleagues...the previous plan didnt work out...so am looking forward for this one....;(
enna pannurathu theriley...enna sollurathu theriley...istham pola type panni kittu iruken.....aaa.....intha naal...iniya naal...alla....gosh (gives a blank look)! poruthu irunthu papum! :)...o yeah ...got a message from vicky....enna pannurange theriley...but..was surprised...after such a long time i've got an sms from vicky...wonder ippo enna pannurange..well i sms'ed back....avangeley poi pakenum...rumba naal achi....hmmm..muz meet up wif vi too...been a long time....*remembers back the old times*....well indy....the last time i heard from indy...well...indy got a good job :)...after tat i didnt follow up....
well i can write as much as i want to day because i guess since its sunday normally there wont be much calls unless something goes wrong. :(..so far so good...i'll keep my finger's crossed....but i guess my mind is not up to the task of crappofying today...hehe...was playing some online games just now wif a colleague....o yeah...her story book...it was nice....i forgot to bring it today...was supposed to give it to her...aii..."bangs her head to the nearest known substance"hehehe......i'll update laterzzz
wat can i say?...
08.14.04 (12:16 am) [edit]u pissed me off a few times today saran,i got pissed.....n then i really dunno wat to sms to u any more....later on u sms'ed back saying u were in an accident....gees saran...i was thinking....u muz have been in a hectic situation...as if it was not enough that u were sick.....i wondered wat u were thinking each time u messaged me back from the accident scene....gosh!....u could have messaged me back later..."not in the midst of just recovered from an accident n still in the scene situation"...hmm....ur having a very bad week....hope all goes well ......n i still cannot kutuk u coz u'll be reading my blog.....erghh...gess..i cannot kutuk bout many ppl ...i mean to those who i gave out the add too.......aaa....regrets giving out the add.....hehehe.....n one more thing...at the rate i am sms'ing u...guess i have to save up to reload again...hehehe :)..;)..n e ways.....
wat was i doing......nope what am i doing....at work as usual....bored...but sumone came over like an angel...n requested to change to morning shift for two days...can u believe that? hahaha.....i was like sun is ok...mon is rotten...but i guess i prefer morning shift....thought it'll be shitty on monday....i prefer mornings i guess.....laterzzz...still a long day to go....
hmm..how bout password protection....hehehe...nasty me..;)
aii...
08.13.04 (3:42 am) [edit]thought i juz added in a comment...i mean a blog juz now...aiyooo...MIA....luckily there aint much stuff there ne ways.....gees feel so bored...hmm...am having my dinner here ...as usual.....so blunt today....nothin much to write....*gets a sharpener to sharpen her brain cells*...hehehe....no good.....
yesterday...a fren made me worried.....first i thought he might be joking....then....i thought he was going paranoid....or he was really really sick he didnt realise wat he was talking about.....i pestered him wif loadz of sms'es ...wonder wther that made him worse......gees...well today....i got to know that he's ok.....good...
well...i wonder wat thach is up to..........and she told me sumthing.....i am still trying to figure out wther she was just pulling my legs or it was true....hmm....if it was a joke well its ok...if not...thach...waitlah u...(gives that wicked smile)....hehehe....hmm wat else....time seems to move so slowly.....gosh...still so long to go...well my sleeping pattern will go down into the drain for this coming two weeks,my dinner gonna end soon...aww.....i'll just prepare sum tissue to console myself...hehehe.....n hopes..."no probzz tonite plzz,i dont mind having a boring day,not a pathethic hectic day"...at least not my first working day
kalakel......
08.12.04 (8:57 am) [edit]i thought i'll drop by one of the old forum's which i used to visit....managed to read two threads...n i was like....geess.... "i was such a menace....mess "...lolz...it made me laugh....shocked n amused at my "coretan's" at that time....lolzzz.....kalakel...o kalakel.....:)....now i shouldnt start to polumbufy here also na.....hehe
de dentist...or shall i say dentist's
08.12.04 (7:54 am) [edit]hmm....i was expecting a rather gloomy morning.....tensed up coz i had to go check my dental status again....hmm...well try to divert my thoughts here n there....so i wont get tensed up....
well...4 years back...my dental prob was bad.....they pluck out some of my teeth...aii....now i've got to wear dentures......mini denture...but its still denture......but the worst part was the surgery.....but luckily it was just a minor surgery..whereby it involved 4 upper level tooth of mine...but it's still surgery...*bleak expressionnnn*
well the ladies were nice....but the doc came by...n he just stared...at my eyes..that pierce through look......i felt uncomfortable......i was thinking wat he's gonna say .....that i got yellow fever?....pah.......then i had to take x ray again.......well routine questions were asked...n everyone dissappeared when the x ray was about to be taken.....i overheard the doc saying..."this gal is acting weird...i feel like asking more questions"blah blah....."...i was like yeah yeah....wait till ur at the mercy of a dentist doc!".......i guess the doc was just being curious.........hmm...but the doc was nice......now i had two no three ladies n a male dentist surrounding me wif two nurses....i was like...oh plzzz.. don't tell me sumthing is wrong..."i dunt wanna be a guinea pig"......at last i was...now they had pix's of my defects taken..u know i was like one of the extra's in Planet Of the Apes again...coz they stuffed sumthin in my mouth...so that they can get a clearer pix of my teeth..maybe for future reference's ...............
i was thinking.....of saying....can u kinda put my name there or sumtin....some kinda publicity....lolzzz....all those crowding n attention n flashes of that camera made me feel like i am a VIP for a moment...lolzz...gosh...got to go again......
gosh!
08.11.04 (8:01 am) [edit]gees...serious crappofying shit!....well more of it to follow i guess...in musings part 2 i presume...hehe....now hope i'll have a better mood to crappofy or shall i say polambefy...kikiki....well finished reading the book....:)...blurr eyed as usual....hehe...couldnt stop reading...hmm....the story was not bad....had its own twists n turn....n my pc ...gees the monitor is giving up on me.....gosh stay alive plzz....dont die on me my dear monitor......don't burn a hole in my pocket!!!!!! aiyoo....crosses her fingers n bade's farewell to her dear blog till laterzzz......:)
oh no!...how can i forget....the dentist....shrieks of terror!!!...dielah!!!!!!
musings....part 1
08.11.04 (1:31 am) [edit]hmm....actually i dunno wat to write today....but i thought i'll write something....just for the sake of updating?....gosh......well...i've been thinking bout this for a very very long time..some how i feel ......... i shouldn't be bothered bout it....but now n then....though i try to shun it....it comes back.....
basically....lots of things seems to confuse me......n there just doesnt seem to be a valid ans.....as far i know....maybe sum one out there knows...i dunno....there's so much of mystery...i mean...the creation of mankind....earth...universe n wat not......when we question the origination of these...it will come back to ?......it will come back with out any answer.....from where did...atoms come from...if there was a source...from where di that source come from...there's so much of mystery...a human body n its function....has been n will always be a mystery to me....hmm..we have so much of unanswered questions...religion,ethics,law....it was spread by men....it was supposed to guide human's on how to live i suppose......n yet we have wars n what not's....amongst mankind..regarding religion....territorial conquest......power.......we seem to claim soo much from this mother earth but at the end of the day....what did we bring to
live to bring back when we die? nothing....but the time span which we're living seems crucial...knowledge is deemed inportant.....to keep on living...the more we now...the better will be our quality of survival......sometimes...imagine a situation......when we're walking down a lane....wif lotsa ppl....we'll be only deemed as an individual jus t like any other person next to us
......any qualifications or recognitions will only be known amongst our frenz or if we inform...the ppl around us....hm basic human identity.....whereby...there wont be any specifications if the there is no name...nothing....whereby there is no answer to the question ...who r u? but specifically....there will be a classification based on the name given...qualifications attained.....n successes achieved.....whereby,,,this is who i am...evolves..
as if understanding our own self...is not enough...we have to understand other's too.....i used to think culture's and tradition's evolved through trial n error...it supposed to..it supposed to&nb sp; be an identity...now this..might be for a group of ppl,a country...n wat not's...hmmm long time ago...there was no...borders or territories.....hehe....no need to have passports n visas n wat not...should be cool...:) ....i guess traditions n culture's will evolve with time....guess have to take the good n leave the bad....gees...my thoughts are not in a good flow today....aiii....wat am i trying to say....hmm... i guess what has been passed over by our ancestors should be viewed as important...i mean a short look at history says lotsa things....they've been there n done that...so why should we commit the same things again...same mistakes...?...hmm i 've always wondered why a question mark should be like this ?...why cant it be /.><()87&^65 or wat not...gees...enof of wat i wrote....i juz remembered ..that book..gosh....mayb am just bored right now...grumbles away.......................
hmm...:(
08.10.04 (12:04 am) [edit]i dunno...am feeling rather depressed to day...well only just now...hmm....i read my whole blog....n i was like....hmm..wat was i thinking? :)...now i dunno what i am gonna write now...practically no mood to write...no idea...nothing....feel so blank...empty...aii....
am waiting when i can go back home....well i'll be on off again for two days....but dreadfully...i'll have to be on night shifts...aaaa.
gees...
08.09.04 (8:16 am) [edit]gees....the other day i helped a cust...well he asked for my e mail add... so i gave it to him...i forgot bout it...but gees...he e mailed that day itself to say thank you...i was so touched...i mean...rarely do we get nice responses like this.....n to think that i only replied today which is roughly after a week....lolzzz...feel very bad...well i do hope i managed to solve his prob....:)
hmm.....well i replied today....well lets see what happens......
could i be bothered?
08.09.04 (1:18 am) [edit]i've got a serious prob here.....i dont seem to be bothered by anything...i dont give a shit and i seriously.... dont care about the ppl nor do i care what is happening around me....i'm so ignorant..lolzz….they say ignorant is bliss…..n i dont seem to care about myself....hmm….(tats bad)
as if i am in my own world….self centered maybe?...not bothered at all what ppl say...what they might say or what they might think…coz I just don’t give a shit…but when I am feeling all time low…some ppl do hurt my feelings…sumtimes it hurts…but most of the time it’ll be awhile n I’ll bounce back…but that doesn’t mean I totally shut out opinions or advises…I listen to them…but I’ll have the final say…gone are the days…where I’ll sit n cry for some stupid things which I thought were very important, actually come to think about it….guess they were just petty matters….guess I am a very strong person now…in my own way….n I will not let anyone shatter it…no one….
But at the end of the day…being too ignorant is just not good either….in certain circumstances….we’ll have to be on guard…..n tat are the moments where ignorance aint not bliss…lolzzz….so I betta make sure about my surroundings all the time……u neva know…..hmm….paranoid….
schizopreniac part 2.........
08.08.04 (6:39 pm) [edit]when i read my frenz comment here....i couldnt help thinking of the havoc i caused last time in the forum's....i cant remember the name..the first forum's name..but i guess kalakel was the worst of all..."maximus polambels" ....ermmm...sumtin like crappofying to the max......haha....i pity the members there...hmm... i think it got so bad...they had a special thread for me bearing my nick....hahaha...thach if ur reading this...maybe if u can still rememeber...lolzzz....maybe i ought to go back there.....n sit n read the whole stuff... have a good laugh....or experience a "mini shock" ......like "I actually wrote that"...hahaha
but sadly kalakel aint that active no more...but what the heck......it was where i went gu gu gaga and the whole part of being schizopreniac started.....hmmm...should i continue my schizopreniac part 2 here......well it's still under consideration....hehehe (leaves ....evil laughter....)
:)
08.08.04 (8:51 am) [edit]was in a good mood today.....after work went over to my uncle's house...then ....as usual spend some time there....took my cousin to the playground.....hahaha....i got on the see-saw.....see-sawed...lolzz.....it was fun...of coz ...i made sure there were no kids around....ermm..was a bit worried though that i might....my weight....just break the see-saw into two parts...lolzz....;)
then....hmm...i wanted so much to get on the swing ...n swing my heart out....lolz.....since there were some kids around.......shucks.......so.....went around wif my cousins .....and later.....gees...it was dark....there werent anyone there....cool or not....hahaha..but i didnt gave a damn....i just swinged n swinged...lolzz...i know... i know....a bit worried....the swing might just rip n come off n i'll be flown over ...hehe///but wat the heck...it was pure fun...felt so good.....now i just felt soo good...as if i was flying.....i thought...waaah....i could just die at that moment....it was so peaceful,so much fun .....felt like a lil kid again.........well i dunno if i will ever get to do this again....but if i can it'll sure be fun....hahahaha.....:D...looking forward to....
sunday....
08.07.04 (10:11 pm) [edit]since yesterday was a rotten day...erghh...well...sunday's are supposed to be wonderful days....aint much calls n stuffs....so was talking to a colleague...ermm two colleagues of mine...got to know loads of stuffs from them....kinda nice to have some nice ppl around...hehe,,,,they were kind enof to ans all my questions ...lolzzz....now am still thinking of sum questions....am having my lunch....i mean had my lunch....so i dunno wat to do now...maybe i'll juz read other blogs...or surf websites wif sum nice kutty kutty stories...:)
oliver's story...
08.07.04 (7:32 pm) [edit]oliver's story.....just got this book from my friend...havent read it though....i cant stop reading if i start...hehe....but this line caught my eyes....
Death ends a life,but it does not end a relationship,which struggles on in the survivor's mind towards some resolution which it may never find............hmm
& nbsp; &n bsp; &nb sp; &nbs p; ; & nbsp; &n bsp; &nb sp; &nbs p; ; & nbsp; &n bsp; &nb sp; &nbs p; ; & nbsp; &n bsp; Robert Anderson ; & nbsp; &n bsp; &nb sp; &nbs p; ;
( I Never Sang For My Father)
luxury.....
08.07.04 (12:48 am) [edit]hehe...tiz is wat i call as luxury.....one hour of freedom....yeah lunch time.....had finished the cream bun...am drinking dutch lady strawberry favoured milk....hehe...
went around talked to my colleagues...hmm...feel better now.....wat was i doing yesterday....yeah am kinda of worried that my old sleeping trend is creeping back in...that was 4 years back irregular sleep patterns....but now sometimes i still have it...sumtimes maybe its just sleep retention...i just kinda sleep late or wat not....but yesterday i was doing my nonsenses as always...i cant sleep...tuned in to my fav radio channel....n started to read paper....till 2.30 am...still couldnt sleep...then i forced myself to sleep...hehe..woke up at 4.00 am....the alarm went off...my mum woke up....she'll start cooking for the food biz as usual..i slept back...woke up at 5.30am....finally woke up at 6.30am..had to ne ways coz of work.....duh!!!!if not i'll sleep like a pig......
maybe coz i was sleeping a lot for the past 3 days...things wasnt that bad....so am ok...but guess when i go back home ...i'll fall flat on my face...hehehe....
...now where was i...hmm...juz finished handling a cust...my god...it took me nearly half an hour to end the conversation...i hate it when they ask for my contact num....this was even worst...he wanted my house num...pah!...n he wants to treat me for lunch....for god's sake i was juz doing my job....thank god this doesnt happen everyday........pathethic..somehow..i managed to get rid of that cust...aiii....shouldnt be too nice to cust's.....hmmm..(puts an evil face)...
well got an appointment wif my dentist...hmm....he asked me to go over to get an x-ray..........at the nearest hospital aroun.gees...hospital again....so i was there..i walked around....so they have this display boards in the hospital na....so i caught hold of this mammo stuff...angio stuff...this scan that scan....n it really didnt go down that well ...ermm....guess hospitals remind me of death's.....its not that i dont think of dying one day...or death is a common occurence....its just wif everyone wearing white over there..makes me feel very restless......i feel a lot worse......
hehe...now wont hospitals be a wunnerful place if ppl wear some lively coloured clothes there.....well had the x ray taken....i didnt open my eyes...but now n then.....i did....this huge machine was rotating around my head...now.....its not that i have not been under the knife before...well at the mercy of a dentist...i really dont get it how i managed to stay put..without a flinch of a mucsle going through the surgery...coz i normally create a havoc if the doc tries to jab me..hmm...guess i must enter that fear factor show......lolz.....but on a serious note...i guess i must start preparing myself..for hospitals,jabs....or watever.....coz i never will know what might happen next....life is to short..........
.i guess i was mentally prepared for it..n i actually came out from the surgery like a cast from the planet of the apes.....totally swelled up face for the amount of aneathetics jabbed at my gums...gees i am writing a lot today.....overflow of ideas?...my god!!!!!
hmm....ideas got disconnected again.....yeah got to meet my dentist again...*shrieks of terror*...wonder whats he gonna do to my teeth this time.....the last visit last month was not so bad....this is not good......
well...got some good news anyways,,,my team won sum tickets....now...we've got tgv tickets...n maybe all of us might go....or if not i'll pass the ticket to my bro..or i'll go n watch a movie whereby i wont fall asleep...hehe:))
i've been blogging here .................nearly half a day on this blog alone...disruptions ...disruptions...lolzz...have to concentrate on my work......juz spoke to a cust....she has a very sweet voice....:))
wat a wunnerful day....
08.06.04 (6:46 pm) [edit]wat a wunnerful day....wunnerful day my foot...this is my first day at office...n boy am i pissed of here.....i dunno wat the blady hell those network ppl were doing or wat shit was or is happenin'....there was no blady IVR ...n we were just answering like robots...for god's sake..we're a bunch of humans here....i couldnt blady well care more or less about any daily reports....to hell with the KPI....as if it was not enough i had three blady rotten days feeling bloated...now this.....i need to do sumthing.,.. n fast...all this things are killing me......pathetified to the core...........erghh...n its only been 1.5 hours at work...pah!!!!
i better go drink some water....before i end up wif a sore throat.....as it was not bad enough.....i dunno what i was thinking....i actually forgot that my shift starts early today....but i managed to come to work....n then this....such good news early in the morning......i feel like my nerves are gonna burst off....aaa.....before my break ends....i'll go n sit somewhere....n come back to my place...laterzzz
have wondered bout tiz...
08.06.04 (7:34 am) [edit]o blady hell....this beta version is getting on my nerves....now what did i type just now....gees..i have to type again.....
where was i.....yeah....i was observing this two infants...some time back....suddenly i remembered about them....there this two infants were playing around,with an innocent sparkle in their eyes,so carefree,happy,peaceful....and as it seems as if they were communicating...wif a language only known to them....:)....watching them put a smile on my face....maybe i was like that some time back......there were no qualms about race,religion or creed...it was basically pure...nice..
but guess....i am no more like that....my mind is pre occupied with a lot of things...as we grow...we tend to forget many things....sometimes i feel i am rather prejudiced...sometimes i feel i make preconceptions about certain matters....but at most times i try to be rationale.....which in many situations seem impossible....hmm...sometimes life seems more like the survival series....survival of the fittest.....kiasuism seems to rule.....
kiasuism to the core...i,me,myself...erghh (vomits blood)...hahaha....dimwittism to the core....:)
aiyayaiii..have to go to work tmrw....(vomits blood again)....hehehe....the end of my off days...awaiting for the following off days...hahaha
yo-yo
08.06.04 (1:46 am) [edit]thats what i was doing yesterday.....how i got the yo-yo...is a diff story all together....when i saw the yo-yo...i kinda remembered...how it used to be a craze sum time back...i mean maybe a decade ago.....ppl kinda enjoy playing yo-yo...and they'll have all kinda stunts whilst playing yo-yo....yo-yo stunts n stuffs.....
well...so tried to play yo-yo...but that thing doesnt want to budge....had to try a few times before i can get hold of it...lolzz...felt like a little kid again.....was rather preoccupied wif this yo-yo- yo thing for sum time...hehe...had a lot of flashbacks of my childhood....sumtimes i guess i have not grown up yet...still very much a child at heart....hmm guess that is only sumtimes...........i've kinda requested a book from my colleague...wonder if she remembers bout that...the last time she borrowed me a book....i read it till i was blurr eyed...now this time....i'll read it on my off days.....
n e ways...watched some movies aired on tv.....particularly this "kutty" movie.....aaa....the ending was so how to say... heart wrenching.....sumtimes i feel i had taken my life for granted....the ppl around me...watever i have n myself for granted.....i cannot imagine what will happen of me....if i was left alone when i was a kid....a child all alone.......and met the wrong ppl...at the wrong time....especially a female....maybe got maimed to beg,sold over to a brothel...killed to get the organs....raped...murdered...turned into a slave....abused...or me....turning in to a wanted criminal....die of hunger.....hmm...gees....sends shivers to my spine....guess i'll put my imaginations to a stop about this....because its really heart wrenching...to think about it....but there are some nice ppl out there....my heart goes out to them....many a time....some one ...somewhere...somehow...has helped me.............hmm
ne ways there was this other movie.."autograph"...kinda liked it...it wasnt that bad...even as i was watching the movie...i had my own flashbacks....my own happy moments n vice versa...well it was nice to see the movie had some positive tones in it...not the usual soap opera n valve mayam stuff....n i really like the song .....nyabagam varuthey....aaa...maybe i'll update again....laterzz..
hmm.........
08.04.04 (9:50 am) [edit]prejudices and preconceptions ...hmmm....:roll:....was actually kind of reading sumthing....n this phrase kind off caught my eye... ne ways...no mood to update my blog today....guess i shall...add in laterzz...got to catch up wif sumtin...n this beta version is not working properly...aiyooo
well....
08.04.04 (9:14 am) [edit]well...couldnt get up today morning....felt really sluggish.....took leave n slept nicely....after that went over to the clinic...the lady doc was nice though.....she checked me and ..told me not to worry..i was ok...well i brought back some medicine....
well felt rather bloated the whole day.....but now i guess its ok...not that bad....hmm...good sum nice piece of adv from ma parents.....had to just sit wif a long face n listen coz what they said was true neways...i am having such a deactivated lifestyle ...i've got to activate myself....now thats wif sum exercise of course.....
hmm....the best part is tmrw n the day after is my off day...hehe.....so i guess i'll think of something....well i was supposed to write sumtin here..guess kinda forgot bout it....aii...shouldnt forget good things...:)
yesterday while i was rushing to go back,i thought i'll meet up wif my colleagues,n out of the blue....she gave me a rose....from a lil bundle of roses that she had...i was taken aback...surprised...so another colleague got jealous and she asked..."hey why didnt i get any ?"...so this colleague said...."i like her so i gave her lah"....lolzz....and to that...the jealous colleague said....then u muz give three roses....so we just winked at her and said...one is for friendshiplah....three is for something else...though the time i spent was short it was nice.....
well i had a rotten week....but yesterday... i remember some customer's were just funny...one particular customer...he had a problem.....hmm...somehow...we managed to come to a solution...and as his acct was suspended... he agreed to pay the agreed amount....so...he wanted to get back to me again.,...but since he has to dial the hotline...well the probability to get the same person is less....but guess what he got me again...n he said,,... "i wanna take lottery today....i got the same person"...i dunno what i was thinking...i accidentally laughed over the phone....then excused myself ...put the cust on hold...n had a good laugh.....hehehe...then i had another customer...lolz...i actually bargained with him...how much he has to pay to activate back his acct....hehehe...after i hung up that call...i was thinking...my god..what was i thinking...wat was i doing...lolzz...crazy....
erghh.....
08.03.04 (8:53 am) [edit]thats what i am feeling right now...erghhh...hehe
ne ways i'll set aside my paranoia for the day..hehe
ne ways...normally i'll spend my day reading other ppl's journal or blogs,it gives me an insight of what's it like...the perception of life in another's point of view....it's interesting sometimes to find out how ppl view this so call LIFE....n e ways...sometimes there are things to be learned especially if we try to put ourselves in their shoes...hmm...guess i dont know how long i'll get to LIVE ...instead of wasting my time committing mistakes might as well....i learn from others........
well we'll just have to take the good and leave the bad...many a time....i've noticed that whats seems important to one person might not seem important to the other...as always....i used to think sometimes that my prob is so huge,,,,when i think about it again.....hey...there other ppl which much more severe probzzz and they are practically livin...so why the heck can't i?.....theres always an alternative...a solution to a problem...i believe....
hmm...maybe that is why....when ppl around me have problem to solve...they come to me...they'll pour out their souls....of coz....i'll listen...n talk to them...of coz...if there is an alternative....i'll even inform them....but the final decision has to be made by them na......the funny thing is....when i really want to pour out my problems...apparently there will b no one around....lolzz...
:wink:
aaa.....suddenly my thought got disconnected...what was i thinking....o yeah....actually...i was thinking a lot today
hmm....i was thinking bout my online frenz...its been sum time since i met some of them online....n they are a bunch of close frenz....guess i really miss them....as they have been aroun through thick n thin....the important part was they were there when i really needed them...the best part was none of them has seen me before nor have i met them...maybe a few of them have had heard my voice...thats about it....hmm...guess it sounds weird..name it trust,faith or instinct...but i guess they are genuine ppl....
since most of them are in overseas guess i wont be able to meet em....but i sincerely would like to thank them for being around...when i needed them most.........
:lol:
n the next time i meet them...i'll inform them that..:) n of coz i'll must not forget to say sorry too...coz i was n still am pest...lolzzz...laterzz...i need sum sleep...
enough of crapping for today.....
wther.....
08.03.04 (1:16 am) [edit]wther its the end of me or not...well its finally the end of my working day...boy am i so relieved...to go back home...though i can feel some pain now...n it seems to get worst.....hmm....n it seems to be everywhere :?
aii....frightening the hell out of me......n e ways...i'll save the rest for tmrw....gees...i hate hospitals....n etc etc..... :x
izzit the end of me......
08.02.04 (9:19 pm) [edit]well let me correct ...tos acct's are about 10,800...i guess we can expect a hectic week....n eways....have not been feeling very well for the past 2-3 weeks...
something is seriously not right with me....n i feel its not just a regular....problem.....i guess i have to get myself checked up....hmm...watever it is...guess i have to have to b prepared...coz i have the feeling i am not gonna like what i am gonna hear soon :cry: ...
even if the doc sez...its the end of u...i should be prepared na....
hmm...lets see what happens tmrw or day after tmrw.... :? :( :(
hmm...
08.01.04 (9:20 pm) [edit]can i say all hell broke loose today....gees..the calls are coming in....n i am mentally n physically drained out explaining to this ppl :x
i guess a short call will be ok...but i guess...too many....gees....but unfortunately i got a few problematic cust's wif pending cases....aa....i managed to cool em down...but it doesnt have to be that way all the time...sumtimes there are just those bunch of freaks....n i'll freak out to...lolzzz.....n e ways...i've got another half day to go.....n things are just the same...no mood to eat....n e ways....no mood to sleep also nowadays....duuh......i've got to do sumthing bout
this........hmm...... :shock:
nowadays....i loathe telephones.....i guess its nearly a month since i put my h/p on silence mode...... :evil:
juz waiting to go back home......i'll have a cup of coffee..........
gonna b tough.....
08.01.04 (8:53 am) [edit]tmrw is gonna b a tough day...monday has never been wonderful...whats wif few amendmends made two days back..... :(
hmm....even today...well.....wif 7,500 cust's wif suspended acct's....i dunno wat to think of...hehe :x ..i guess the same goes wif my colleagues...
well let's see how things go on for me tmrw...
o yeah...in the process of applying for a new job....i just dunno...what to apply for...i am simply applying...though not seriously....but i have applied to some just now...let's see what happens......till i feel like updating again....adios