sunday....
07.31.04 (4:31 pm) [edit]working on a sunday....aah....hehehe :? .....okies okies....for sumtime have been bugged wif negative thinking....for a long time...actually...have been trying to be a bit positive...but i can't.....now what can i do......
shall...i say.. i can...i will...i must......blah blah blah....
okies let's try to be positive today...*pats herself on the shoulder* 8) ....god help me.....
hmm..there must be a shed of light at the end of the tunnel................
education....
07.27.04 (8:26 am) [edit]when i was a kid...i used to wonder...why do i have to study....but then i was informed its for my future...by my family ...by everyone around me.....
so i studied n studied...at one point when i was studying i had to make a decision...i took a decision...n halfway i lost...interest in that field...but i kept studying in the same field....i know ..i know .. i should have changed....so stupid of me....duh....
after graduating....now.....though u have the qualification u dont have the job.....somtimes there's not much vacancy...from the field which we excelled from...so when we start to apply to jobs wif no relevance...its like starting from scratch...but then again....from the same field or not.....watever qualification that we have...its just like a platform....for us to enter the real working world.....everything seems so new......what we learn in textbooks...just wont materialize in the real world...every day is like a new experience....we learn new things........i 've got to learn about ppl....n process seems like an ongoing process....guess it will never end
but sometimes...its just so weird....some educated ppl....professionals....are so snobbish,egoistic to the core.....with basically no respect to any other fellow human being....shall i say superiority complex.... hmm....shouldnt education make ppl more humble....wise...level headed....
hmm...makes me wonder.....will i be...one of those snobbish,egoistic dimwits in the near future.....hopefully not.....
:roll:
going insane....
07.26.04 (2:10 am) [edit]i think i have gone insane,....trying to finish a novel...roughly less then half a day reading n reading till my eyes are now sooo tired....i feel so tired...that i can't work...everything seems so blurr....lolzz....too much of reading is bad for the eyes...hahaha.........
that apart...i was thinking bout something else....being judgemental n to be judged....
i dunt know...but sometimes...when i see a person..i have this feeling...that i dont like whomever i just saw ...n its basically not because i judged them..its something more like...i sensed that i would never "click" with them..some kinda instinct....sometimes i feel guilty ..i just cant stop it...and i feel i can sense it to if some one doesnt like me......normally i'll evade the person i dont like or just mind my own biz if the other party doesnt like me...
but talking about being judged....hehe..sometimes i just like to see the reaction on ppl's faces...hehe..they'll gimme that look...most of the time i couldnt be bothered but sometimes if i am having a bad day...i'll just give back a cold stare....a stare which comes with the message mind ur own biz...
being bullied is another thing... how i fret when i think of my school days..when a colleague used to bully me....it has had left a big deep scar...a bad memory,whats wif a teacher who made fun of me in front of the whole class everyday for nearly a year...duh!!!!!!........i've got nightmares then...hehe
i used to wonder...i was a bright kid,brave,enthusiastic about life.....now i feel so hopeless,stupid,fearful,u nenthusiactic about each day of my life..n i am only in my mid twenties...duh...if i ever get to live this life..boy there is so much to go through..thought by god's grace i have a lot of wonderful ppl around me...but its just me....i am just sinking n sinking...n one day i fear i'll drown...in my own hopelessness....end up in mental asylum...lolzz...
duh..this is just not my day....i need sum rest and some food.....
:shock: :shock:
strange....
07.25.04 (1:52 am) [edit]nowadays....everyday on the headlines of the newspaper...its the same old thing...rape,murder,theft...u name it they have it....some times i wonder why this is happening....it used to be so quiet...calm...or ppl were much more nicer then or there wasnt much press freedom.....i dunno...
but things seem to turn sour after the recessions and dot.com blunder....aaa...lotsa ppl jobless...suicides...loan sharks...etc etc....hmm....things have not been the same after that i guess....the country's developing all right....at super speed... but i feel....if this is the price we have to pay....hmm...well whats the use of development when the ppl are not ready for it....maybe....we should learn from other ppl's mistakes and hopefully we dont repeat the same mistakes again....
instead of pin pointing all the time to others...it'll be beneficial if they look at themselves first....i'm bored to read about complaints...of this...complaints of that...but guess if its the dead end of a problem...then what else can we do but to complain....but most of these issues have some sort of an alternative...a solution...ppl have just become lazy as they would like to solve everything with a click of the mouse...."n the ..i have no time" phrase..there is no such thing as no time ...either u make use of ur time or waste it...its all about time management.....with...good time management there wont be much ppl rushing on office hours...but unless...u cant say much about show offs....whereby reckless driving..is a way of life for some ppl...pah!
i dont bother much about these reckless drivers...if they are willing to be reckless ..then they've got to pay for it...but when it involves the life of another...then its something to ponder.....
hmm..and one more thing..something wat i experience at my workplace..these so called "sophisticated customers" are just a bunch of ppl who'll get on my nerves all the time...not all but some of them have nothing better to do...but complain...these so n so countries service was much more better...why is ur service blah blah...sumtimes i just feel like asking them to go n stay at where ever they preach so much about....maybe they've got to realise the diff between a developed and a developing country...duh!...well if they feel...the country is lacking in some sector...instead of complaining why not help build the country...aii.....
hmm...hopefully when the country has become one of the developed nations...the ppl will be able to face the challenges living in a developed nation.....more to write...laterzz
bored
07.20.04 (1:14 am) [edit]hmm...guess i am sick n tired of my job....hmm..its time to look for a new job...but what where n how...starting everything from scrath juz gives me the freaks,,,but i aint happy wif my current job either...what shall i do......
:shock:
i've been lost for sume time...and it aint getting better...well it's getting worst n seriously dont know what i am gonna do wif my life n where it is heading...but it all seems soo gloomy now....ergghhh :(
hmm..i used to to be a very patient person....used to wish i'll be a short tempered person...hehe.....now ppl say becareful what u wish for....hehe now i am a short tempered person.....n it doesnt seems so nice after all...lolzz...but one thing....i try to be the "yes" person all the time...its kinda tiring.....well this "short temper" will be useful after all :P ...sometimes u juz have to say "no"
izzit juz me...or izzit them
07.18.04 (8:54 am) [edit]why izzit that...sum times ppl refuse to talk to us,but when we confront them...they'll juz say..."nothing"...kinda pathetic...i guess if i'm in the wrong,well i pretty well might appreciate it...if i know what went wrong.....if the other party just shuts it...how are we to know wats the prob ...i guess the same thing applies to me....even if i am not happy wif sum one or something...it so darn difficult to say no..or i dont like what u said just now...or better still i dont like u.....or i am annoyed wif....why izzit so difficult...ayee
sumtimes i guess..i'm concerned i'll hurt another person's feelings by confessing....but by hiding the fact..i am betraying myself n the other person one way or another....it doesnt matter frens ..family...or who ever it is...i guess everybody appreciates truth...then being backstabbed....but sumtimes truth can only create pain...hmm most of the time i guess..:)...n e ways....i try my best to reveal something in a delicate manner,if i am not happy bout something...but most of the time if i am not happy wif it...i'll just stay out of it..minding my own biz..i mean if i can't click wif sum one...instead of trying to change sumone...i should either change myself or change the fren...n find a fren which has the same mutual interests .....
...gees....i'm swerving here n there...i dunno where i am heading wif this subject...i guess world would be a betta place,,,if ppl can just be frank to themselves n to others aroun them.............
i'll be a liar if i say i dont lie...but i am trying my best to be honest wif myself n 2 those aroun me.....
hmm....
07.15.04 (4:21 am) [edit]have tried to shop at the tbucks online shop,but i dont get it,i purchased two headers,but i havent received any mails yet,maybe i have to wait,well have updated my blog,
my 15 days pro template has already expired...hehe....so i wonder how to upgrade this site(my blog that is) :roll:
gees...
07.11.04 (5:15 pm) [edit]i've got so much to write but no mood to sit down and write anything,guess since i've been away for sum time,juz 2 liven up my blog...guess i'll drop by a few words 8)
have to rush for my training...gees...laterzzz :P
:)
07.06.04 (9:49 am) [edit]been thinking on various subjects,,,,thought bout writing it here,,well not now i guess...
hmm... :( ....trying to figure out about this blog site...lolzz..via trial n error.... 8)
c ya............ :wink:
aaa.....
07.03.04 (9:18 pm) [edit]last time i used to have soo many things to type...lolzz...nowadays i guess i have to crack my head on what to type....seems like there's not much zest in my life or its juz age catching up...or juz stressed up for no reason......aiyayaii..this is no good.... :roll:
well maybe its the job.....routine work yucks.....but then again....well...maybe i have to venture out n explore maybe i'll get "a life" lolzzz.....or maybe i'm juz tired of the wif the job...sick n tired......well i reckon its the same wif all contact centre's lolzz...."pathethifying"....but sumtimes sum ppl do make ur day...and vice versa........
well ...everyday is a lovely day till a lousy customers calls in a spoils the day :evil:....hahaha
well i guess the customers will have their own versions for call centre agents :wink:
well it's my lunch again...n i have no mood to eat...its sunday today n the GMT is totally wrong for my blog....guess have to fix it as it is 1.18 pm now... i have a few more hours n i can go back......sundays aint that bad...calls aint much....so here i am blogging...lolzzz :P ...
studied for something else...working somewhere else....jumbled up soap opera life.....i am a very bad deicision maker....i have to rectify that first....n that i'll prolly get a clear pic on what i want to do wif my life...lolzz....hopefully i just wont be a born...lived...died case...hopefully....born...lived..accomplished..died case...... 8)
well...........
07.02.04 (9:59 pm) [edit]8) ...here i am having my lunch in front of my pc......browsing whilst having my lunch.....accompanied by nescafe cafe latte and a piece of vanilla creamed bun...no life u say...well...its not tat bad actually..... :lol:
sometimes when u have urself as ur sole companion....things can become boring...seem routine...but to think of it..its better in many ways....the freedom to actually to do things as u want...hmm...enof of blabbering......tmrw most of my colleagues will be going for an inter bowling competition....and i'll be at the office wif some others at the call centre...hehe...wish i had joined....lolzzz...always slow